you call this love? FINALE.

Dedicated to the most amazing readers.-

That's it. i can't bear it! i'm going to their house.
I quickly took my abaya and got in the car, the drive took like 15 minutes? but it was like two hours to me. i was worried, scratch that, i was frightened.
i knocked on their door but no one seemed to answer it, i kept knocking and knocking until reema finally opened the door, she was happy and smiling but once she saw me, her whole face expressions changed. what?
i hugged her: uff finally! weenik 3an jwalk enti? dget 100 mara yemkin! 5awfteni 3likum-
She interrupted me; i know.
i stared at her: then explain yazg! eish fekum? abdulrahman rja3? omg mswy surprise li 9a7?*smiling widely*
She sighed while looking around: haya i'm so busy right now so it would be better if we meet up later or something..
me: um busy? are you avoiding me?
Reema: it's not like that, but listen-
"haya? it's haya right? hallaaa o sahla taw ma nawar elbet yagalbi!" her mom said as she walked past reema to greet me, she's so sweet.
Me: halla feik 5alti*kissing her cheek* mnawr bahla walla!
i completely forgot about reema.
Abdulrahman's mom; eewa o kaifk o kaif omik? salmeli 3leha wa7shtni!
i smiled: kwaisa walla 7amdella! yu9al inshala
Abdulrahman's mother: weeh haya jeti bwagtk trak, nseina nbashrk!
i looked at her, confused; tbshruni beish?
Reema walked closer to her mother; mama, shrayk nd5l-
Abdulrahman's mother, haw reema ma 3almtik? bnfra7 ba7ad greeb*winking*
i grinned: oh reema en56bt? yagalbi o matbi t3almni!
abdulrahman's mother: laaaa abdulrahman eli 56ab!

Abdulrahman.
Abdulrahman.
Abdulrahman.

i stared at her: m-men 56ab?
Abdumrahman's mother: haw da7omi b3ad galby! 56ab lah bnt elx basma, barkela 3ad t3rfen mbsu6 o-
she kept on talking and talking but it's like she was saying nothing, nothing came to my ears. all what kept repeating is "abdulrahman 56ab, bnt alx, basma ya 7lwha"
I dragged my eyes to meet reema's, how could she? how could he? HOW COULD THEY!
Tears started filling my eyes, NO, i'm stronger than this, i wont let it ruin me.
Me*faking a smile* mashallah mabrouk! weenah abdulrahman abark lah?
i could feel reema's shock as she kept staring at me.
Their mother called abdulrahman as i tried the best i could not to cry right now, it's definitely not the right time, but ouch. it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
Abdulrahman: halla yuma mein b3ad bybark*laughing*
i couldn't even speak when i saw how happy he was, i'm out of words, in a very bad way.
i stepped closer and faked smiling; ana! mashallah mabrouk! mnk elmal o mnha.....
i couldn't complete it, i can't even imagine MY da7omi marrying another women AND having children from her, this is too much for me to handle.
I could feel his burning gaze: a-allah yba-ark *taking a deep breath* feek.
We stayed like forever just staring at each others, i just wanted to ask him why? what have i done to deserve this? what about our promises?
i guess my eyes spoke to him because i saw the guilty look in his eyes, the apologizing look, the forgive-me-please.
On my dead body!
His mother voice broke our gaze off, she said: tfa9'li 7abebti enti 9ayra mn elahl 3ad lazm t7tflen m3ana.
i finally returned to her, i was shaking, he did this to me. and more.
Me: la 5alti shukran*looking at reema* matg9ren.
Yeah, m a t g 9 r e n.
Um wajhen.
I hugged their mother again and said that i needed to leave, she understood and let me go, it's so weird how sweet she is considering to her fake two faced kids.
as i was walking out, tears started falling like a waterfall, i. can't. keep. this. anymore.
i'm broken, and hurt. i can't even explain to you guys how i felt. it was like i couldn't breath, it's like there's a hole in my heart, katma. o3'abna.
Out of blue, i saw abdulrahman standing infront of me breathing heavily: haya, wait! i can explain.

i quickly wiped my tears but that didn't stop them from falling again and smiled a sarcastic smile: explain what? let me think, first, you travel, and i was like oh it's okay! second, you don't call, third; we drift away, fourth, you say you love me, fifth, you say you want to marry me, sixth; you said you CAN wait. seventh; you suddenly disappear and make me go crazy, and finally eighth; here you are here, in riyadh, engaged!*clapping* and you want to explain? that doesn't need any explaining though, just leave.. please.
abdulrahman: No*stepping closer to me before i walk away again* it isn't that easy you know? i had to marry one! my dad forced me do this. believe me.
i teared; this is your reason? such a jerk. you know they say once a player always a player, right? now let me go. bsr3a.
Abdulrahman: but-
Me: do you know what? i..... *smiling* i actually loved you. but it's my fault anyways. goodbye abdulrahman. forever.
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They always say hearbreaks come one after another in life, you get used to it and over it, and complete your life easily. Not.
That didn't happen to me. After six months since that day, i'm still broken, i still cry myself to sleep every night. i still get those 4am breakdowns because of him, evernight.
But no, that doesn't mean that i need him, that diesn't mean that i'm not happy; I'M HAPPY! i made the biggest effort to leave him and i'm thankfull of doing that!  i'm an independent women right now. i don't need anyone; i'm traveling abroad after two months. There's no more naive haya; weak and kind haya, i changed. i'm much stronger now. and i thank abdulrahman for that.

So tell me people, you call this love?

i, myself don't.
i call it falling into a hole and never going back.
i call it the never ending overthinking that makes me want to cruel into my bed and live forever, there.
I call it having a breakdowns every once and a while and being so used to it.
i call it losing myself. Because i lost myself long time ago, and i can't bring it back.

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so that's the end, i hope you wont hate me for this haha!
but you never know, there "may" be an epilogue for this, soon. ;)

you call this love? 13.

This is just a pre-finale chapter, the finale one will be posted soon.
And guys do you like this way of writing? or the old one?
comment!
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"W-what?" his voice was shaking as he asked me, i took a deep breath and tears started falling down again.
"you heard me." i whispered, not sure if my voice was even hearable.
"but why haya? i thought you lov-" he said but stopped before mentioning the love word. here is it. he's not even sure if i love him? is he crazy or something?
"i'm too young to get married abdulrahman! i'm just 17!" i sighed.

"we can work it out 7abebti! and for now, i want you to think about this before you answer me again because i'll be waiting for you. keep that in mind." i can hear the tone of depression he used. he was depressed.
"o-okay.." i was gasping for air from crying that i couldn't come out with proper words to say.
"don't cry baby girl! i'm not mad at you, how could i be? please, just smile." he calmly and lovingly said.
"i miss you so m-much, you know.." i gulped as i started wiping my tears with my other hand.
He sighed deeply. "i misse you more and more! now go to sleep, you sure need to rest now."
i nodded, unaware of the fact that he can't see me.
"good night, sleep tight love"
"good night." i hung up and stared at my phone for minutes, i miss him already.

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-4 months later.-
4 months has passed and abdulrahman didn't return back yet. he was supposed to be back earlier.
our phone calls got less day by day,i understand he is busy but i feel so empty without him.
Today, me and abdulrahman completed one year together, i wished that this would be in different conditions where we would celebrate it together, where he would look at me in the eyes and whisper "i love you." and-
but now. i just hope he remembers....
i was home alone, my sisters and everyone were going out but i-like always- didn't feel like doing that so i stayed.
My phone rang "A.<3"
i picked it up: "haai!"
"it's been a one year.." he said and i can feel him smiling.
"you remember.." i said slowly more like stating a fact.
"how could i forget? it was my lucky day." i blushed as i stared at the floor, i feel like he is here, right beside me.. holding my hands.
Who said long distance relationships can't last? now i'm sure it can.

"it passed by so fast! i still remember the look on your face when i first met you." i grinned as i started playing with my hair.
"yeah.. you haven't answered my question yet, haya"
"what question?" i wondered.
"my proposal?" i giggled as it came to my mind, oh god.
"i don't know..." i lamely answered, embarrassed.
He sighed and i can tell he's tired.
"shfeek?" there's something going on, i'm sure about that.
"wla shai! i gotta go now.."
"but-" he interrupted me.
"i love you. "
Did i hear that right? did he just say it?
"wh-at?" i dumbly asked.
"i love, adore, admire you haya!" he whispered.
"u-uh i do more." i blushed furiously.
"take care babe!" he said as i mumbled "you too" then the line went dead.
i love him. and i'm sure about my answer now.
************
"i'm so worried lama, what's wrong with him?" i said as stared at my bestfriend, weirded out.
"haya! don't overreact just because he hasn't called you in what? 7days?"
"12 damn days lama! it's a long time." i looked again at my phone hoping he would surprise and call me.
"don't worry, honey. akeid he is busy with work or something, tra it isn't easy for him there!" she hugged me.
"i hope." i whispered.

9.. 10.. 15 days passed and i still didn't hear a thing about abdulrahman, i freaked out!
I started calling reema and she also didn't pick up, i called again and again bas mafi fayda.

what's happening?

you call this love? 12.

Dedicated to our birthdayy girl<3 iloveyou! @tweetyjay_
tell me guys what do you think will happen after this chapter.
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it was one cold night.
i was laying on abdulrahman's lap, reema was in the kitchen making hot chocolate for us.

Abdulrahman*playing with my hair*: 7abebty
Me: hmm?
Abdulrahman: i have to tell you something.
he suddenly went nervous and i crossed my eyebrows, i hope it's not something bad.
Me*looking up at him* yes?
Abdulrahman: so... my father called. he asked me to take his place in our company.
Me*smiling*: kwais! that's a good thing 6ayb.
Abdulrahman: the thing here is.. it's in london.
i got off his lap and faced him: y-you're leaving?
Abdulrahman*stroking my cheeks*: Not forever, sweetie.
I asked as tears started threating to fall over: for how long?
Abdulrahman: 4 months...
4 months without seeing him? is he tourturing me or something? i can't......
I stayed silent as tears were falling one behind the other, i know it's not for that long but i can't handle those long destination relationships...
Abdulrahman*hugging me*: hey! i'll call you everyday, i promise. and i would come here to to kiss these small lips that are pouting right now.
I fought the urge to smile: you're unbelievable.
Abdulrahman: yalla wipe off those tears from your beautiful eyes, ma3ndna bnat y9e7un.
i blushed: let's go to reema.
he stood up:
whatever you want, mudmazulle.

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A few days has passed since abdulrahman traveled to london, and i already feel lost.
-lama calling-
Me: ha-
Lama*screaming*: HALLA HALLA BELS7BA
me: ahaha kaif-
Lama: KAIFK ENTI I MISS YOU SO MUCH T5AYLI SH9AR THIK J-
Me: eskti shwy 6ayb ma asma3*laughing*
lama*taking a long breath*: 6ayb, kaifk? sh5bark? sh3loumk? kwaisa 9a7? a9lan akeid kwaisa l2ank t7akeni
This girl is crazy. and yes that's my bestfriend for you.
Me: mashi il7al, shfek mara hyper?*laughing*
Lama: l2anu i miss you so much yanfsya! yala 5aln6la3 fe ashya2 kther magltha lk
Me: hmm.. i don't think that i can.
Lama: haw laish?*sighing* haya.. walla ma ynfa3 t7bsen nafsk belbet bs 3shana msafr?
Me: mu 3an kitha, mali 5lg.
i can feel her getting disappointed, but what can i say?
Lama: alright haya; bye.
I threw my phone on the matress and sighed heavily, seems like my days are going to be like this.......
*************
-3 months later.-
i jumped on my bed as i was waiting for abdulrahman's call, it's our usual time for him to call. i couldn't help but smile remembering our past conversations.

my phone rang and i picked it up excitingly thinking that i will be hearing one of his "greetings from London! how can i serve you?" lame jokes. but i didn't.
Abdulrahman: halla
Me: halla feek 7abebii! kaifk o kaif eldwam?
Abdulrahman: 7amdellah bs t3ban shway
Me*gasping*: slamtk mn elshar!
Abdulrahman: allah ysalmk!
there was moments of silence, i don't like this.
Abdulrahman: haya, can i ask you for something? i know it's not the right time to ask this but..
me: um sure! ask away..

He took a deep breath:
"Haya alx. will you marry me?"
without any thinking, i answered.

"No."

you call this love? 11.

people, i know my chapters are short but that's just how the story is. and it's going to end within three-four chapters i guess? enjoy. xx
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-Abdulrahman POV.-

in all my years of dating, i've never felt this way like how i feel towards Haya.
she was different, or i thought she was?
However, hearing her talking on the other line that day wasn't just shocking.... it hurted.
i never capture myself getting hurt over a women, but here i'm, smoking it away.
i haven't talked to her since a week? i know i should've given her the chance to speak, maybe i was wrong?
but i just couldn't bear hearing her say that she was talking with bader before, and i didn't want to.


-haya's POV.-

Regrets. regrets. regrets.
that's what it's all about.
Uff i know that i didn't do anything wrong-obviously- it was dana and fahda's fault but i couldn't help but regret it.
He doesn't reply to my texts and calls now, god! i have to talk to him now. and explain.

-bbm-
Reema: hayuuu! weenik yalsa7ba?
Haya: haai:( mawjuda
Reema: fekum shai enti o 3bdulr7man? adri mali d5al bs mara hu mt3'yr...
Haya: about that.. i need your help.
Reema: i'm always here! what's wrong?
i called and told her about everything, she said "esm3i etha tbein t7akena ma3ndk ela il7een, hu elwagt ilw7ed eli ykun feh belbet."
Me: umm sure bs mat7sen shwy 3aib aji il7een?
- it was 10pm so it was kinda late..-
Reema: la haw elbet betik! yalla i will be waiting.
Me: but seriously next time you're going to my house, skant fbetkum!*laughing*
she laughed along and hung up.
-
She whispered: come in, he's outside.
I suddenly felt nervous, as soon as i came in she ran inside the house leaving the two of us. but he was giving me his back anyways.
I slowly walked to where he was standing to see him smoking.
i stared at him, he was perfect. everything in him was perfect from the way he moves to his smile, that sweet adorable smile...
Me: you really should stop smoking.
he didn't even flinch, he just turned around and stared at me back,
Abdulrahman: why?
i smiled genuinely: because i care about your health and... you.
He laughed: i clearly saw that.
i frowned: umm look i'm sorr-
Abdulrahman: save it haya.
me: no! listen to me.
i told him everything, starting from going to ta7lia and ending to when fahda called bader.
I glumped: do you get it now?
Abdulrahman: but you should've told me that you were going there.
Me: i know that i made a mistake and i'm sorry*pouting* are we clear now?
He sighed: i hate how i can't stay mad at you.
i jumped in enthusiasm as i kissed his cheeks. he said: you know i would like it better if this kiss was in another place*smirking*
i laughed: wa95!
he shrugged: i'll get it someday.
we walked back into the house as he put his arms around me, i love it when he side hugs me like that.
i'm so lucky.
Me: so i should get going now.
Reema: but you just got here!
Me*frowning* i know but it's too late now.
Abdulrahman: come with me,i'll drive you there.
i nodded and wore my abaya again, we got in the car and drove off.
We arrived to my house after half an hour i guess? i honestly didn't want to get out.
me*frowning*: so is this a goodbye?
Abdulrahman: bs ma shba3t mnk.
i blushed: b3d galbi!
We chatted for a bit, but when i was about to go out of the car he held me back, i turned: wh-
he kissed me. a long passionate kiss.
it was all what i would ask for. a perfect first kiss.
He pulled away and caressed my cheek: i told you that i would get it.

"goodbye for now, haya."

you call this love? 10.

previously:
That day, i fought the urge to tell him that i, love him.
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i've been awaken this morning by my annoying sister, well not exactly "morning"; it was 7pm:$.
She told me to get ready and that we're going out with my cousin fahda.

i showered, blow-dried my hair and wore the juicy culture training that abdulrahman bought me since the weather was cold and we're going to her house afterwards.
Dana*coming to my room*: ha 5la9ti?
Me*applying a bit of eyeliner*: ee il7een.
-in the car-
fahda: shafeeq rou7 lelta7lia
Me: min jdk ta7lia il7en? mara za7ma!
fahda: and your point is?
me*rolling my eyes*:bykun feh m3'azl o ma95ra
dana: yashe5a 3adi mara7 yswun lna shai.
I scoffed and stayed silent, me and abdulrahman had a deal that whatever he goes to, he would tell me where, and i would do the same.
But this time i decided to not.

the driver pulled away in front of a restaurant, we ate and everything then started walking around ta7lia. it was crowded with guys and girls.
There was guys following us all the time, one tried to get our numbers but we didn't reply.
guy1*standing right infront if me*: ya7lu, yathgeel, mntb nawya t36eni elrgm?
Ew. disgusting.
I pretended to be busy with my blackberry and started bbming lama.
Guy2: yalla 3ad warana ash3'al 7na*laughing*
guy1: 6yb shraykun bas ta54un elrgm o bntrkum?
Me: 6yb 36ni bs engl3
Guy2*laughing*: tawh y6l3 lha lsan ashuf
Guy1*handing me his number and winking*: I'll be waiting for your call.
I rolled my eyes and they left, dana and fahda were shocked.
Dana: law eni 3arfa byru7 kitha kan 54et elrgm min zman*laughing*
Fahda: bnat shraykum ndg 3laih b3dein n6g6g?
Me: laaaa may7taj.
We went back to the car and drove to fahda's. they kept nagging and nagging about calling that guy. i swear sometimes i feel like i'm the older one between them.
Danaa*pouting*: hayouuna mara 6fash 5lena n7akeih amana!
fahda: ee tra bs bn6g6g!
i sighed: fine, bs ana mali d5al etha 9ar shai!
they all nodded and eagerly dialed his number, he picked it in a blink of eye: i knew you would call!
Dana*giggling*:haai 7abeebiii!
fahda*grabbing the phone from dana*: halla bel3yal halla
They kept talking and i just rolled my eyes, till i heard the guy*bader* say: ela wein elbnt eli 36et'ha elrgm, ashufha hajda
Fahda*looking at me and laughing*: ee hi kitha
Bader: 3ad 36uha eljwal bshbkha m3 wa7d zai jwha jals jambi, li sana a8n3a ykalm o maybi.
i gasped and mouthed a big NO to them, wsh halm95ra?
Dana*giggling*: ee okay
Me*looking at dana*: ma abi!
They ignored me and apparently bader gave the other guy his phone or something to talk to me. i.don't.want.to.
Dana: yalla haya!
they put the phone in my ears and mentioned to me to talk, i sighed: hai!
The guy: hey!
His voice is so familiar..
Me: umm so how are you?
The guy: i'm good.
i stayed silent but talked with him eventually, he seemed like he didn't want to talk to me, too.
The guy; wait i know your voice! lat9eren wa7da t6g6g mn 9degat reema.
Me: umm la?
Dana*shouting*: hayaa tra lama 7aktni-
The guy: haya?
that's when it hit me.
Me: abdulrahman?

-to be continued.-

you call this love? 9.

Dedicated to @aseelkhalid_<3
i know it's short, but guess what? i'm posting another one today:3
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2 months has passed, midterms are taking over my life and i had spent most of my days studying, sleeping or coming over at reema's.

speaking of reema, we grew so much closer so it has been an ordinary thing to come over at hers, which means seeing da7umi; too.:$
i missed him so much and what really annoys me that i didn't get to see him except for one time; but we still talk everyday.

today is wednesday, at last.
I promised reema to come over at night, so when it was around 7-8pm i was outside her house and the maid opened the door.
I smiled: hai meli, where'a reema?
she smiled back: she's probably sleeping, but come in.
as soon as i entered the house i was pulled to a hard chest in a hug.
i looked at abdulrahman'a face and blushed: haai
He smiled down at me while hugging me tighter: i missed you.
me: i missed you too!*frowning* latgul enk bt6laa3!
He released me and started playing with my hair: kaif a6la3 o a5ali elgamar hina?
i laughed: so cheesy; but i like it
he smirked: i know i know.
Me: agoul wein reema? 6walt el5dama o hi t97eha
Abdulrahman*laughing*: 3ad reema noumha thgeel, e9breli brou7 lha foug o a97eha.
i smiled: it's okay i can wake her up
he laughed: la la m7d y3rf lha ela ana, ejlsi bs
I nodded and sat down while he went upstairs, i looked around and started bbming when i heard a phone ringing.


at first, i ignored it, i mean 3eib ashuf jwal men o kitha but it didn't stop ringing so i slowly walked to the table and picked the phone, the background was da7umi's picture so i assumed it was his.
It finally stopped ringing but a massage popped up, and me, being the nosy i'm i opened the massage.
From: unknown number
"i miss you so much and i want us back."
To say that i was shocked is an understatement, i kept staring at the text again, and again and again.
was it munera? basma, or another one of his girls?
"ufffff ya5i mu ktha y97oon mu kitha!!" reema's voice echoed while she was going downstairs, followed by Abdulrahman laughing.
i quickly locked his phone and left it on the table then faked giggling: B9ra7a yareema magd shft w7da tnam o hi 3azma 9a7bt'ha
She shrugged: ilnoom malik!
abdulrahman*laughing* suul6aan mu malik
i looked at him and frowned but he didn't notice it, reema hugged me and we sat down.
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3 hours has passed and i still didn't get over what happened earlier, most of the time i was trying so hard to avoid talking to abdulrahamn.
Suddenly reema jumped and said: dgegaa haya brou7 ajeb el laptop min foug o aji
I nodded as she left, abdulrahman took the chance and sat next to me, he softly took my hand: i see you're wearing the bracelet i gave you.
me*looking down*: yeah..
Abdulrahman: what's wrong?
i scoffed and stood up: nothing
he stood up too and wrapped his arms around me: no seriously, what's wrong?
after minutes of silence, i finally talked: abdulrahman..
Abdulrahman: 3yuna?
Me: umm.. your ex's y7akunk?
he stared at me: mu ktheir!
Me: esh ygulun?
he scoffed: why are you asking? it doesn't matter
Me: it matters to me!
we stayed in awkward silence again, god why did reema have to take this long upstairs?
out of blue, i whispered: i'm afraid..
he looked at me: of what?
"of losing you."
He kissed my forehead: you'll never, and i mean it, never lose me. i'll always be here for you! but is this why you were asking me those questions?
me: umm kindof, bs please da7umi latrd etha wa7da mnhum 7aktk!
He laughed: are you seriously jealous?
i blushed: maybe..
Abdulrahman: hayona, shfti hal3yun?
*pointing at his eyes* matshuf 3'arik! o shfti halgalb? *pointing at his chest* mayfakr b3'airk! enti ma54a 3agli yahaya! madri shmswya feeh*smiling warmly*
i blushed and smiled looking down, giving him the "i'm not angry anymore" sign.
Abdulrahman: r9'eenaaa?
i giggled: r9'aina, shfeha reema lsa majat?
Abdulrahman: shtbeen fehaa! ana abeik enti l7alk.
I looked at him and whispered: 6ayb tdri ana shabi?
He whispered, too; eish?
i leaned closer to him; food!
and ran to the kitchen, he laughed lightly and followed me: you're one of a crazy kid.
i shrugged: i've been told.
Reema finally came in: all good?
abdulrahman*smiling*: all good.
I shoot abdulrahman a glare, he told her to stay upstairs so he could talk to me freely.
Afterthat, we watched a movie, messed around and laughed alot, i had a good time.

That day, i fought the urge to tell him that i, love him.

you call this love? 8.

Dedicated to @hayabinghaith! a7bik akthar mn ma t7been 3bdulmajeed.<3

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I thought that not talking to abdulrahman is easy, but it's hard as hell!

i miss our late night chats, his funny stories, the way he makes me feel special, the way he makes me happy..
i already miss him when it's has been just a few days without talking. i kind of regretted taking that choice and i'm afraid of what his answer will be.

-bbm-
Abdulrahman: hey..
me: hi.
abdulrahman: long time, huh?
me: ee;p
i fought the urge to text him with "i miss you" because i really did.
i waited for him to say something, anything?

Abdulrahman: soo is this how it feels like to be single?:p
me: what?
Abdulrahman: well i'm not practically single when i have feelings for another girl... right?
me: shga3d tgul ent?...
Abdulrahman: eli ga3d agulah eni trakt basma 3shanik ya haya. twni a76' eny kalb o 7mar o 7aywan. men ybadl elgamar bnjoum o hum gdamah?
i don't know why but i blushed: umm?
Abdulrhman: what i'm saying is that you've been here with me all the time and i'm too stupid to not notice that you're the one.
you're the one who makes me laugh when i'm not in the mood to, you're the one who i could easily tell everything to and feel comfortable with it. you're the one who i've always longed to. you're funny, different, sweet and pretty. i really, really like you haya.

wow! that's the cutest thing i've ever received.
oh my god. he likes me! am i dreaming or what...
Haya: da7umi, i don't know what to say..
Abdulrahman: may7taj tgulein shai<3 i just wanted you to know my real feelings, which had been hidden for too long.
i didn't know what to reply so i just replied with "<3" while i was jumping up and down from happiness.
Adri mara bard elrad bs eish agul ya3ni? there's no way i'm going to say that i like him back. not now at last.


so two weeks has passed and it was one of the most perfect days ever. abdulrahman and i talk daily, i can't get enough of him seriously! sometiems we would spend all tbe day talking o nru7 el9ba6 mwa9lein, but i was happy. i have never been happy like this before, i prayed everyday that this wont change.
Annnnd i did say that i liked him back:$ bs belmut 6la3at-.-....
- school-
"yazg e97i ma9rna nshufik!"
me*raising my head slowly* hmmm?
Noura*laughing* enti tnamein?
me: ee bs mu ktheir
lama*raising an eyerbow* mta a5r mara nmti?
i whispered: 3 days ago
they gasped and started lecturing me, again.
Lama: la 9idg awal ma trj3en nami 6ayb? ashuf 7abeb elgalb mu m5alek tnamein*laughing*
nouf*winking* ee ma54 3aglha thalwalad.
Friends. as much as they are annoying i can't hate them. i couldn't! y5aleli.
Me: bnat what day is it?
Noura: 7 february.
Lama: omg haya it's your birthday!
i shrugged: yeah..
i couldn't care less about my birthday, i'm somehow not excited for it.
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I woke up several hours after my nap, i had a bad headache but i quickly showered and changed, lama, nouf and noura are coming over.
They nagged and nagged about coming over to selebrate my "birthday" i didn't dress up, tank top and shorts will do their job.
-bbm-
Abdulrahman: babyyy
Me: ?:$
abdulrahman: weenik? kl elyum makalmtk:(
Me: abad bs nmt o twni a97a, lama, nouf o noura byjoun
Abdulrahman: ooh, have fun ya galbi!
me: i will<3
Half an hour later they came over, we had a lotttt of fun bs something was going on, they were whispering things to each others and lama was bbming mostly- all the time.

Me: shfeekum?
Nouf: aa mafena shai bs-
lama*interrupting* haya fe 9out jaras 9a7? shakl fe a7ad bara rou7i shufii!
me: umm okay?
Noura: dgega dgega!*untying my hair* ee kitha a7san
me: haw sh9ayr?
Lama: enti e6l3i bas*grinning*
i walked upstairs, no one was at home of course so it was only me and my friends.
Fra7t elbab: meen?
and was surpised to see abdulrahman.
oh not surprised, shocked you can say!
he smiled lazily: halla halla
i gasped: bismellaah shjabk ent?
abdulrahman: la bs-pushing the door open and getting in- knt bwa9l lik shai!
i looked down at the three bags he was carrying; oh no you didn't!
Abdulrahman*grinning*: happy birthday 7abebtyyyy!
he started singing "3'nu l7bebi" and i was blushing furiously, i'm soo not used to this! he's too cute. ugh.
he handed me the bags, cartier, tiffany and juicy.
Abdulrahman: t4kren lma glteli tbeen love bracelet? hatha*handing me the bag* o jak o jayb two ba3ad, o hatha eltraining eli glti btshtrenah bs malgeti size? jbtah lk. o eltiffany zyada mni, hu shwai 3laik bs shnsawi malget shai bgadrk!*looking down*
i smiled shyly: may7taj walla! shukraan
He smiled back: shda3wa ma swait shai...

this is perfect. my life seems like a fairytale now!
he stepped closer and hugged me warmly, i hugged him back and i felt like i was protected, it's like whenever i'm with him, nothing else matters, no one else matters!

But, will it last?