you call this love? FINALE.

Dedicated to the most amazing readers.-

That's it. i can't bear it! i'm going to their house.
I quickly took my abaya and got in the car, the drive took like 15 minutes? but it was like two hours to me. i was worried, scratch that, i was frightened.
i knocked on their door but no one seemed to answer it, i kept knocking and knocking until reema finally opened the door, she was happy and smiling but once she saw me, her whole face expressions changed. what?
i hugged her: uff finally! weenik 3an jwalk enti? dget 100 mara yemkin! 5awfteni 3likum-
She interrupted me; i know.
i stared at her: then explain yazg! eish fekum? abdulrahman rja3? omg mswy surprise li 9a7?*smiling widely*
She sighed while looking around: haya i'm so busy right now so it would be better if we meet up later or something..
me: um busy? are you avoiding me?
Reema: it's not like that, but listen-
"haya? it's haya right? hallaaa o sahla taw ma nawar elbet yagalbi!" her mom said as she walked past reema to greet me, she's so sweet.
Me: halla feik 5alti*kissing her cheek* mnawr bahla walla!
i completely forgot about reema.
Abdulrahman's mom; eewa o kaifk o kaif omik? salmeli 3leha wa7shtni!
i smiled: kwaisa walla 7amdella! yu9al inshala
Abdulrahman's mother: weeh haya jeti bwagtk trak, nseina nbashrk!
i looked at her, confused; tbshruni beish?
Reema walked closer to her mother; mama, shrayk nd5l-
Abdulrahman's mother, haw reema ma 3almtik? bnfra7 ba7ad greeb*winking*
i grinned: oh reema en56bt? yagalbi o matbi t3almni!
abdulrahman's mother: laaaa abdulrahman eli 56ab!

Abdulrahman.
Abdulrahman.
Abdulrahman.

i stared at her: m-men 56ab?
Abdumrahman's mother: haw da7omi b3ad galby! 56ab lah bnt elx basma, barkela 3ad t3rfen mbsu6 o-
she kept on talking and talking but it's like she was saying nothing, nothing came to my ears. all what kept repeating is "abdulrahman 56ab, bnt alx, basma ya 7lwha"
I dragged my eyes to meet reema's, how could she? how could he? HOW COULD THEY!
Tears started filling my eyes, NO, i'm stronger than this, i wont let it ruin me.
Me*faking a smile* mashallah mabrouk! weenah abdulrahman abark lah?
i could feel reema's shock as she kept staring at me.
Their mother called abdulrahman as i tried the best i could not to cry right now, it's definitely not the right time, but ouch. it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
Abdulrahman: halla yuma mein b3ad bybark*laughing*
i couldn't even speak when i saw how happy he was, i'm out of words, in a very bad way.
i stepped closer and faked smiling; ana! mashallah mabrouk! mnk elmal o mnha.....
i couldn't complete it, i can't even imagine MY da7omi marrying another women AND having children from her, this is too much for me to handle.
I could feel his burning gaze: a-allah yba-ark *taking a deep breath* feek.
We stayed like forever just staring at each others, i just wanted to ask him why? what have i done to deserve this? what about our promises?
i guess my eyes spoke to him because i saw the guilty look in his eyes, the apologizing look, the forgive-me-please.
On my dead body!
His mother voice broke our gaze off, she said: tfa9'li 7abebti enti 9ayra mn elahl 3ad lazm t7tflen m3ana.
i finally returned to her, i was shaking, he did this to me. and more.
Me: la 5alti shukran*looking at reema* matg9ren.
Yeah, m a t g 9 r e n.
Um wajhen.
I hugged their mother again and said that i needed to leave, she understood and let me go, it's so weird how sweet she is considering to her fake two faced kids.
as i was walking out, tears started falling like a waterfall, i. can't. keep. this. anymore.
i'm broken, and hurt. i can't even explain to you guys how i felt. it was like i couldn't breath, it's like there's a hole in my heart, katma. o3'abna.
Out of blue, i saw abdulrahman standing infront of me breathing heavily: haya, wait! i can explain.

i quickly wiped my tears but that didn't stop them from falling again and smiled a sarcastic smile: explain what? let me think, first, you travel, and i was like oh it's okay! second, you don't call, third; we drift away, fourth, you say you love me, fifth, you say you want to marry me, sixth; you said you CAN wait. seventh; you suddenly disappear and make me go crazy, and finally eighth; here you are here, in riyadh, engaged!*clapping* and you want to explain? that doesn't need any explaining though, just leave.. please.
abdulrahman: No*stepping closer to me before i walk away again* it isn't that easy you know? i had to marry one! my dad forced me do this. believe me.
i teared; this is your reason? such a jerk. you know they say once a player always a player, right? now let me go. bsr3a.
Abdulrahman: but-
Me: do you know what? i..... *smiling* i actually loved you. but it's my fault anyways. goodbye abdulrahman. forever.
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They always say hearbreaks come one after another in life, you get used to it and over it, and complete your life easily. Not.
That didn't happen to me. After six months since that day, i'm still broken, i still cry myself to sleep every night. i still get those 4am breakdowns because of him, evernight.
But no, that doesn't mean that i need him, that diesn't mean that i'm not happy; I'M HAPPY! i made the biggest effort to leave him and i'm thankfull of doing that!  i'm an independent women right now. i don't need anyone; i'm traveling abroad after two months. There's no more naive haya; weak and kind haya, i changed. i'm much stronger now. and i thank abdulrahman for that.

So tell me people, you call this love?

i, myself don't.
i call it falling into a hole and never going back.
i call it the never ending overthinking that makes me want to cruel into my bed and live forever, there.
I call it having a breakdowns every once and a while and being so used to it.
i call it losing myself. Because i lost myself long time ago, and i can't bring it back.

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so that's the end, i hope you wont hate me for this haha!
but you never know, there "may" be an epilogue for this, soon. ;)

you call this love? 13.

This is just a pre-finale chapter, the finale one will be posted soon.
And guys do you like this way of writing? or the old one?
comment!
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"W-what?" his voice was shaking as he asked me, i took a deep breath and tears started falling down again.
"you heard me." i whispered, not sure if my voice was even hearable.
"but why haya? i thought you lov-" he said but stopped before mentioning the love word. here is it. he's not even sure if i love him? is he crazy or something?
"i'm too young to get married abdulrahman! i'm just 17!" i sighed.

"we can work it out 7abebti! and for now, i want you to think about this before you answer me again because i'll be waiting for you. keep that in mind." i can hear the tone of depression he used. he was depressed.
"o-okay.." i was gasping for air from crying that i couldn't come out with proper words to say.
"don't cry baby girl! i'm not mad at you, how could i be? please, just smile." he calmly and lovingly said.
"i miss you so m-much, you know.." i gulped as i started wiping my tears with my other hand.
He sighed deeply. "i misse you more and more! now go to sleep, you sure need to rest now."
i nodded, unaware of the fact that he can't see me.
"good night, sleep tight love"
"good night." i hung up and stared at my phone for minutes, i miss him already.

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-4 months later.-
4 months has passed and abdulrahman didn't return back yet. he was supposed to be back earlier.
our phone calls got less day by day,i understand he is busy but i feel so empty without him.
Today, me and abdulrahman completed one year together, i wished that this would be in different conditions where we would celebrate it together, where he would look at me in the eyes and whisper "i love you." and-
but now. i just hope he remembers....
i was home alone, my sisters and everyone were going out but i-like always- didn't feel like doing that so i stayed.
My phone rang "A.<3"
i picked it up: "haai!"
"it's been a one year.." he said and i can feel him smiling.
"you remember.." i said slowly more like stating a fact.
"how could i forget? it was my lucky day." i blushed as i stared at the floor, i feel like he is here, right beside me.. holding my hands.
Who said long distance relationships can't last? now i'm sure it can.

"it passed by so fast! i still remember the look on your face when i first met you." i grinned as i started playing with my hair.
"yeah.. you haven't answered my question yet, haya"
"what question?" i wondered.
"my proposal?" i giggled as it came to my mind, oh god.
"i don't know..." i lamely answered, embarrassed.
He sighed and i can tell he's tired.
"shfeek?" there's something going on, i'm sure about that.
"wla shai! i gotta go now.."
"but-" he interrupted me.
"i love you. "
Did i hear that right? did he just say it?
"wh-at?" i dumbly asked.
"i love, adore, admire you haya!" he whispered.
"u-uh i do more." i blushed furiously.
"take care babe!" he said as i mumbled "you too" then the line went dead.
i love him. and i'm sure about my answer now.
************
"i'm so worried lama, what's wrong with him?" i said as stared at my bestfriend, weirded out.
"haya! don't overreact just because he hasn't called you in what? 7days?"
"12 damn days lama! it's a long time." i looked again at my phone hoping he would surprise and call me.
"don't worry, honey. akeid he is busy with work or something, tra it isn't easy for him there!" she hugged me.
"i hope." i whispered.

9.. 10.. 15 days passed and i still didn't hear a thing about abdulrahman, i freaked out!
I started calling reema and she also didn't pick up, i called again and again bas mafi fayda.

what's happening?

you call this love? 12.

Dedicated to our birthdayy girl<3 iloveyou! @tweetyjay_
tell me guys what do you think will happen after this chapter.
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it was one cold night.
i was laying on abdulrahman's lap, reema was in the kitchen making hot chocolate for us.

Abdulrahman*playing with my hair*: 7abebty
Me: hmm?
Abdulrahman: i have to tell you something.
he suddenly went nervous and i crossed my eyebrows, i hope it's not something bad.
Me*looking up at him* yes?
Abdulrahman: so... my father called. he asked me to take his place in our company.
Me*smiling*: kwais! that's a good thing 6ayb.
Abdulrahman: the thing here is.. it's in london.
i got off his lap and faced him: y-you're leaving?
Abdulrahman*stroking my cheeks*: Not forever, sweetie.
I asked as tears started threating to fall over: for how long?
Abdulrahman: 4 months...
4 months without seeing him? is he tourturing me or something? i can't......
I stayed silent as tears were falling one behind the other, i know it's not for that long but i can't handle those long destination relationships...
Abdulrahman*hugging me*: hey! i'll call you everyday, i promise. and i would come here to to kiss these small lips that are pouting right now.
I fought the urge to smile: you're unbelievable.
Abdulrahman: yalla wipe off those tears from your beautiful eyes, ma3ndna bnat y9e7un.
i blushed: let's go to reema.
he stood up:
whatever you want, mudmazulle.

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A few days has passed since abdulrahman traveled to london, and i already feel lost.
-lama calling-
Me: ha-
Lama*screaming*: HALLA HALLA BELS7BA
me: ahaha kaif-
Lama: KAIFK ENTI I MISS YOU SO MUCH T5AYLI SH9AR THIK J-
Me: eskti shwy 6ayb ma asma3*laughing*
lama*taking a long breath*: 6ayb, kaifk? sh5bark? sh3loumk? kwaisa 9a7? a9lan akeid kwaisa l2ank t7akeni
This girl is crazy. and yes that's my bestfriend for you.
Me: mashi il7al, shfek mara hyper?*laughing*
Lama: l2anu i miss you so much yanfsya! yala 5aln6la3 fe ashya2 kther magltha lk
Me: hmm.. i don't think that i can.
Lama: haw laish?*sighing* haya.. walla ma ynfa3 t7bsen nafsk belbet bs 3shana msafr?
Me: mu 3an kitha, mali 5lg.
i can feel her getting disappointed, but what can i say?
Lama: alright haya; bye.
I threw my phone on the matress and sighed heavily, seems like my days are going to be like this.......
*************
-3 months later.-
i jumped on my bed as i was waiting for abdulrahman's call, it's our usual time for him to call. i couldn't help but smile remembering our past conversations.

my phone rang and i picked it up excitingly thinking that i will be hearing one of his "greetings from London! how can i serve you?" lame jokes. but i didn't.
Abdulrahman: halla
Me: halla feek 7abebii! kaifk o kaif eldwam?
Abdulrahman: 7amdellah bs t3ban shway
Me*gasping*: slamtk mn elshar!
Abdulrahman: allah ysalmk!
there was moments of silence, i don't like this.
Abdulrahman: haya, can i ask you for something? i know it's not the right time to ask this but..
me: um sure! ask away..

He took a deep breath:
"Haya alx. will you marry me?"
without any thinking, i answered.

"No."

you call this love? 11.

people, i know my chapters are short but that's just how the story is. and it's going to end within three-four chapters i guess? enjoy. xx
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-Abdulrahman POV.-

in all my years of dating, i've never felt this way like how i feel towards Haya.
she was different, or i thought she was?
However, hearing her talking on the other line that day wasn't just shocking.... it hurted.
i never capture myself getting hurt over a women, but here i'm, smoking it away.
i haven't talked to her since a week? i know i should've given her the chance to speak, maybe i was wrong?
but i just couldn't bear hearing her say that she was talking with bader before, and i didn't want to.


-haya's POV.-

Regrets. regrets. regrets.
that's what it's all about.
Uff i know that i didn't do anything wrong-obviously- it was dana and fahda's fault but i couldn't help but regret it.
He doesn't reply to my texts and calls now, god! i have to talk to him now. and explain.

-bbm-
Reema: hayuuu! weenik yalsa7ba?
Haya: haai:( mawjuda
Reema: fekum shai enti o 3bdulr7man? adri mali d5al bs mara hu mt3'yr...
Haya: about that.. i need your help.
Reema: i'm always here! what's wrong?
i called and told her about everything, she said "esm3i etha tbein t7akena ma3ndk ela il7een, hu elwagt ilw7ed eli ykun feh belbet."
Me: umm sure bs mat7sen shwy 3aib aji il7een?
- it was 10pm so it was kinda late..-
Reema: la haw elbet betik! yalla i will be waiting.
Me: but seriously next time you're going to my house, skant fbetkum!*laughing*
she laughed along and hung up.
-
She whispered: come in, he's outside.
I suddenly felt nervous, as soon as i came in she ran inside the house leaving the two of us. but he was giving me his back anyways.
I slowly walked to where he was standing to see him smoking.
i stared at him, he was perfect. everything in him was perfect from the way he moves to his smile, that sweet adorable smile...
Me: you really should stop smoking.
he didn't even flinch, he just turned around and stared at me back,
Abdulrahman: why?
i smiled genuinely: because i care about your health and... you.
He laughed: i clearly saw that.
i frowned: umm look i'm sorr-
Abdulrahman: save it haya.
me: no! listen to me.
i told him everything, starting from going to ta7lia and ending to when fahda called bader.
I glumped: do you get it now?
Abdulrahman: but you should've told me that you were going there.
Me: i know that i made a mistake and i'm sorry*pouting* are we clear now?
He sighed: i hate how i can't stay mad at you.
i jumped in enthusiasm as i kissed his cheeks. he said: you know i would like it better if this kiss was in another place*smirking*
i laughed: wa95!
he shrugged: i'll get it someday.
we walked back into the house as he put his arms around me, i love it when he side hugs me like that.
i'm so lucky.
Me: so i should get going now.
Reema: but you just got here!
Me*frowning* i know but it's too late now.
Abdulrahman: come with me,i'll drive you there.
i nodded and wore my abaya again, we got in the car and drove off.
We arrived to my house after half an hour i guess? i honestly didn't want to get out.
me*frowning*: so is this a goodbye?
Abdulrahman: bs ma shba3t mnk.
i blushed: b3d galbi!
We chatted for a bit, but when i was about to go out of the car he held me back, i turned: wh-
he kissed me. a long passionate kiss.
it was all what i would ask for. a perfect first kiss.
He pulled away and caressed my cheek: i told you that i would get it.

"goodbye for now, haya."

you call this love? 10.

previously:
That day, i fought the urge to tell him that i, love him.
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i've been awaken this morning by my annoying sister, well not exactly "morning"; it was 7pm:$.
She told me to get ready and that we're going out with my cousin fahda.

i showered, blow-dried my hair and wore the juicy culture training that abdulrahman bought me since the weather was cold and we're going to her house afterwards.
Dana*coming to my room*: ha 5la9ti?
Me*applying a bit of eyeliner*: ee il7een.
-in the car-
fahda: shafeeq rou7 lelta7lia
Me: min jdk ta7lia il7en? mara za7ma!
fahda: and your point is?
me*rolling my eyes*:bykun feh m3'azl o ma95ra
dana: yashe5a 3adi mara7 yswun lna shai.
I scoffed and stayed silent, me and abdulrahman had a deal that whatever he goes to, he would tell me where, and i would do the same.
But this time i decided to not.

the driver pulled away in front of a restaurant, we ate and everything then started walking around ta7lia. it was crowded with guys and girls.
There was guys following us all the time, one tried to get our numbers but we didn't reply.
guy1*standing right infront if me*: ya7lu, yathgeel, mntb nawya t36eni elrgm?
Ew. disgusting.
I pretended to be busy with my blackberry and started bbming lama.
Guy2: yalla 3ad warana ash3'al 7na*laughing*
guy1: 6yb shraykun bas ta54un elrgm o bntrkum?
Me: 6yb 36ni bs engl3
Guy2*laughing*: tawh y6l3 lha lsan ashuf
Guy1*handing me his number and winking*: I'll be waiting for your call.
I rolled my eyes and they left, dana and fahda were shocked.
Dana: law eni 3arfa byru7 kitha kan 54et elrgm min zman*laughing*
Fahda: bnat shraykum ndg 3laih b3dein n6g6g?
Me: laaaa may7taj.
We went back to the car and drove to fahda's. they kept nagging and nagging about calling that guy. i swear sometimes i feel like i'm the older one between them.
Danaa*pouting*: hayouuna mara 6fash 5lena n7akeih amana!
fahda: ee tra bs bn6g6g!
i sighed: fine, bs ana mali d5al etha 9ar shai!
they all nodded and eagerly dialed his number, he picked it in a blink of eye: i knew you would call!
Dana*giggling*:haai 7abeebiii!
fahda*grabbing the phone from dana*: halla bel3yal halla
They kept talking and i just rolled my eyes, till i heard the guy*bader* say: ela wein elbnt eli 36et'ha elrgm, ashufha hajda
Fahda*looking at me and laughing*: ee hi kitha
Bader: 3ad 36uha eljwal bshbkha m3 wa7d zai jwha jals jambi, li sana a8n3a ykalm o maybi.
i gasped and mouthed a big NO to them, wsh halm95ra?
Dana*giggling*: ee okay
Me*looking at dana*: ma abi!
They ignored me and apparently bader gave the other guy his phone or something to talk to me. i.don't.want.to.
Dana: yalla haya!
they put the phone in my ears and mentioned to me to talk, i sighed: hai!
The guy: hey!
His voice is so familiar..
Me: umm so how are you?
The guy: i'm good.
i stayed silent but talked with him eventually, he seemed like he didn't want to talk to me, too.
The guy; wait i know your voice! lat9eren wa7da t6g6g mn 9degat reema.
Me: umm la?
Dana*shouting*: hayaa tra lama 7aktni-
The guy: haya?
that's when it hit me.
Me: abdulrahman?

-to be continued.-

you call this love? 9.

Dedicated to @aseelkhalid_<3
i know it's short, but guess what? i'm posting another one today:3
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2 months has passed, midterms are taking over my life and i had spent most of my days studying, sleeping or coming over at reema's.

speaking of reema, we grew so much closer so it has been an ordinary thing to come over at hers, which means seeing da7umi; too.:$
i missed him so much and what really annoys me that i didn't get to see him except for one time; but we still talk everyday.

today is wednesday, at last.
I promised reema to come over at night, so when it was around 7-8pm i was outside her house and the maid opened the door.
I smiled: hai meli, where'a reema?
she smiled back: she's probably sleeping, but come in.
as soon as i entered the house i was pulled to a hard chest in a hug.
i looked at abdulrahman'a face and blushed: haai
He smiled down at me while hugging me tighter: i missed you.
me: i missed you too!*frowning* latgul enk bt6laa3!
He released me and started playing with my hair: kaif a6la3 o a5ali elgamar hina?
i laughed: so cheesy; but i like it
he smirked: i know i know.
Me: agoul wein reema? 6walt el5dama o hi t97eha
Abdulrahman*laughing*: 3ad reema noumha thgeel, e9breli brou7 lha foug o a97eha.
i smiled: it's okay i can wake her up
he laughed: la la m7d y3rf lha ela ana, ejlsi bs
I nodded and sat down while he went upstairs, i looked around and started bbming when i heard a phone ringing.


at first, i ignored it, i mean 3eib ashuf jwal men o kitha but it didn't stop ringing so i slowly walked to the table and picked the phone, the background was da7umi's picture so i assumed it was his.
It finally stopped ringing but a massage popped up, and me, being the nosy i'm i opened the massage.
From: unknown number
"i miss you so much and i want us back."
To say that i was shocked is an understatement, i kept staring at the text again, and again and again.
was it munera? basma, or another one of his girls?
"ufffff ya5i mu ktha y97oon mu kitha!!" reema's voice echoed while she was going downstairs, followed by Abdulrahman laughing.
i quickly locked his phone and left it on the table then faked giggling: B9ra7a yareema magd shft w7da tnam o hi 3azma 9a7bt'ha
She shrugged: ilnoom malik!
abdulrahman*laughing* suul6aan mu malik
i looked at him and frowned but he didn't notice it, reema hugged me and we sat down.
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3 hours has passed and i still didn't get over what happened earlier, most of the time i was trying so hard to avoid talking to abdulrahamn.
Suddenly reema jumped and said: dgegaa haya brou7 ajeb el laptop min foug o aji
I nodded as she left, abdulrahman took the chance and sat next to me, he softly took my hand: i see you're wearing the bracelet i gave you.
me*looking down*: yeah..
Abdulrahman: what's wrong?
i scoffed and stood up: nothing
he stood up too and wrapped his arms around me: no seriously, what's wrong?
after minutes of silence, i finally talked: abdulrahman..
Abdulrahman: 3yuna?
Me: umm.. your ex's y7akunk?
he stared at me: mu ktheir!
Me: esh ygulun?
he scoffed: why are you asking? it doesn't matter
Me: it matters to me!
we stayed in awkward silence again, god why did reema have to take this long upstairs?
out of blue, i whispered: i'm afraid..
he looked at me: of what?
"of losing you."
He kissed my forehead: you'll never, and i mean it, never lose me. i'll always be here for you! but is this why you were asking me those questions?
me: umm kindof, bs please da7umi latrd etha wa7da mnhum 7aktk!
He laughed: are you seriously jealous?
i blushed: maybe..
Abdulrahman: hayona, shfti hal3yun?
*pointing at his eyes* matshuf 3'arik! o shfti halgalb? *pointing at his chest* mayfakr b3'airk! enti ma54a 3agli yahaya! madri shmswya feeh*smiling warmly*
i blushed and smiled looking down, giving him the "i'm not angry anymore" sign.
Abdulrahman: r9'eenaaa?
i giggled: r9'aina, shfeha reema lsa majat?
Abdulrahman: shtbeen fehaa! ana abeik enti l7alk.
I looked at him and whispered: 6ayb tdri ana shabi?
He whispered, too; eish?
i leaned closer to him; food!
and ran to the kitchen, he laughed lightly and followed me: you're one of a crazy kid.
i shrugged: i've been told.
Reema finally came in: all good?
abdulrahman*smiling*: all good.
I shoot abdulrahman a glare, he told her to stay upstairs so he could talk to me freely.
Afterthat, we watched a movie, messed around and laughed alot, i had a good time.

That day, i fought the urge to tell him that i, love him.

you call this love? 8.

Dedicated to @hayabinghaith! a7bik akthar mn ma t7been 3bdulmajeed.<3

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I thought that not talking to abdulrahman is easy, but it's hard as hell!

i miss our late night chats, his funny stories, the way he makes me feel special, the way he makes me happy..
i already miss him when it's has been just a few days without talking. i kind of regretted taking that choice and i'm afraid of what his answer will be.

-bbm-
Abdulrahman: hey..
me: hi.
abdulrahman: long time, huh?
me: ee;p
i fought the urge to text him with "i miss you" because i really did.
i waited for him to say something, anything?

Abdulrahman: soo is this how it feels like to be single?:p
me: what?
Abdulrahman: well i'm not practically single when i have feelings for another girl... right?
me: shga3d tgul ent?...
Abdulrahman: eli ga3d agulah eni trakt basma 3shanik ya haya. twni a76' eny kalb o 7mar o 7aywan. men ybadl elgamar bnjoum o hum gdamah?
i don't know why but i blushed: umm?
Abdulrhman: what i'm saying is that you've been here with me all the time and i'm too stupid to not notice that you're the one.
you're the one who makes me laugh when i'm not in the mood to, you're the one who i could easily tell everything to and feel comfortable with it. you're the one who i've always longed to. you're funny, different, sweet and pretty. i really, really like you haya.

wow! that's the cutest thing i've ever received.
oh my god. he likes me! am i dreaming or what...
Haya: da7umi, i don't know what to say..
Abdulrahman: may7taj tgulein shai<3 i just wanted you to know my real feelings, which had been hidden for too long.
i didn't know what to reply so i just replied with "<3" while i was jumping up and down from happiness.
Adri mara bard elrad bs eish agul ya3ni? there's no way i'm going to say that i like him back. not now at last.


so two weeks has passed and it was one of the most perfect days ever. abdulrahman and i talk daily, i can't get enough of him seriously! sometiems we would spend all tbe day talking o nru7 el9ba6 mwa9lein, but i was happy. i have never been happy like this before, i prayed everyday that this wont change.
Annnnd i did say that i liked him back:$ bs belmut 6la3at-.-....
- school-
"yazg e97i ma9rna nshufik!"
me*raising my head slowly* hmmm?
Noura*laughing* enti tnamein?
me: ee bs mu ktheir
lama*raising an eyerbow* mta a5r mara nmti?
i whispered: 3 days ago
they gasped and started lecturing me, again.
Lama: la 9idg awal ma trj3en nami 6ayb? ashuf 7abeb elgalb mu m5alek tnamein*laughing*
nouf*winking* ee ma54 3aglha thalwalad.
Friends. as much as they are annoying i can't hate them. i couldn't! y5aleli.
Me: bnat what day is it?
Noura: 7 february.
Lama: omg haya it's your birthday!
i shrugged: yeah..
i couldn't care less about my birthday, i'm somehow not excited for it.
-
I woke up several hours after my nap, i had a bad headache but i quickly showered and changed, lama, nouf and noura are coming over.
They nagged and nagged about coming over to selebrate my "birthday" i didn't dress up, tank top and shorts will do their job.
-bbm-
Abdulrahman: babyyy
Me: ?:$
abdulrahman: weenik? kl elyum makalmtk:(
Me: abad bs nmt o twni a97a, lama, nouf o noura byjoun
Abdulrahman: ooh, have fun ya galbi!
me: i will<3
Half an hour later they came over, we had a lotttt of fun bs something was going on, they were whispering things to each others and lama was bbming mostly- all the time.

Me: shfeekum?
Nouf: aa mafena shai bs-
lama*interrupting* haya fe 9out jaras 9a7? shakl fe a7ad bara rou7i shufii!
me: umm okay?
Noura: dgega dgega!*untying my hair* ee kitha a7san
me: haw sh9ayr?
Lama: enti e6l3i bas*grinning*
i walked upstairs, no one was at home of course so it was only me and my friends.
Fra7t elbab: meen?
and was surpised to see abdulrahman.
oh not surprised, shocked you can say!
he smiled lazily: halla halla
i gasped: bismellaah shjabk ent?
abdulrahman: la bs-pushing the door open and getting in- knt bwa9l lik shai!
i looked down at the three bags he was carrying; oh no you didn't!
Abdulrahman*grinning*: happy birthday 7abebtyyyy!
he started singing "3'nu l7bebi" and i was blushing furiously, i'm soo not used to this! he's too cute. ugh.
he handed me the bags, cartier, tiffany and juicy.
Abdulrahman: t4kren lma glteli tbeen love bracelet? hatha*handing me the bag* o jak o jayb two ba3ad, o hatha eltraining eli glti btshtrenah bs malgeti size? jbtah lk. o eltiffany zyada mni, hu shwai 3laik bs shnsawi malget shai bgadrk!*looking down*
i smiled shyly: may7taj walla! shukraan
He smiled back: shda3wa ma swait shai...

this is perfect. my life seems like a fairytale now!
he stepped closer and hugged me warmly, i hugged him back and i felt like i was protected, it's like whenever i'm with him, nothing else matters, no one else matters!

But, will it last? 

you call this love? 7.

sorry for taking too long xx
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i swallowed the lump in my throat, why am i about to cry? it's nothing...
i've been told by him of how many girlfriends he used to have, girls throwing themselves on him and blablabla. but it didn't effect me that much. i thought i was okay with the idea of him having another girls, but i'm NOT. sigh....
me: abdulrahman 3ady traj3ni elbeet?
abdulrahman*confused*: shfeek?
me: mafeni shay bs t3abt..
he didn't buy it. he held my hand with a concern look: swait shay ana? walla asf!
Me*smiling*: haw shfek maswet shay bs ana t3bana! btw9lni wla adg 3ala elswag?
He sighed a knowing sigh, turned his body and started the engine again. half an hour later i was already at home.
-
- three days later -
Three days has passed and i didn't talk much with abdulrahman, i don't even know why...
it was already weekend. Reema invited me again. i told her that i can't-obviously lying- but she nagged and nagged until i agreed. Stupidly.
So here i'm in front of her house. she opened the door, hugged me and we sat in her room watching movies and gossiping.
Me: reema i'm so in the mood to cook, shrayk?
She yawned: suure bs ay shay sahl mali 5lg 7ousa.
we went downstairs to the kitchen and decided to make a salad.
me: ana bga63 o enty 6al3y ay shai nshrba 6yb?
she nodded and brought the drinks to the upstairs dining room. so it was only me in the kitchen.
i stared cutting the cucumber, i was in my own thoughts that i didn't notice cutting my finger until it started bleeding, i screamed: ouch ouch ouch!
it really hurts.
"bismellah 3laik sh9ayr?" i turned around to see Abdulrahman. kan labs thob so akeid twa wa9l, he looks hot tho... snap out of it!
me: aa- la ma9ar shay
he ignored me and came closer to see my finger.
he brought a napkin and wrapped it around my finger, then kissed my finger. it honestly was the most amazing feeling ever.
"feeni wla feek" he said softly as he stared at my eyes. i felt myself blushing like crazy.
we shared a moment of staring at each others, his eyes said something that i didn't quite get, it was like he was trying to send me a massage.
 
"did i interrupt something?" reema's voice dragged me out of our moment and i jumped away. awkward.
He scratched the back of his neck nervously: No but her finger was bleeding and i helped her,*turning to me* slamat o ma tshufen shar.
i mumbled "allah ysalmk" as he stormed off the kitchen, reema smirked devilishly at me: arou7 dgayg o y9eer kl hatha?
I blushed: ma9ar shay a9lan
reema: oh please, tara i saw how you were looking at each others, it's obvious something is going on.
i whispered: you have no clue
Apparently she heard me, she dragged me out of the kitchen with her and we went upstairs.
Reema: listen haya bgoolk shay
Me: sami?
Reema: i know my brother more than anyone in earth could. i know everything! 7ata salft that he is a player*sighing* but believe me, i never felt that he cared about a girl, until he met you.
me: kaif ya3ni?
reema: ya3ny enu abdulrahman likes you, he really does. 7ata the past three days he has been asking about you continuously. but he's too afraid to show that he likes you.

Me: there's no way that he does! he have a girlfriend reema.
she shrugged: so what? having a girlfriend doesn't mean that you can't have another feelings, for another girl. you know.

Me: it does mean that! isn't that the point?*smiling sarcastically*
Reema: neither one of them are taking that seriously, you think basma isn't a player? *laughing* she surely is and everyone knows that.

i sighed: what do i have to do now? he still have her. she is still his.
Her eyes glowed with excitement: i know what you have to do. you, my dear, have to change him.


but how?
-Next day, lama's house-
i frowned as lama took a place in front of me and pointed at my phone.
i haven't replied to abdulrahman since this morning, of course my phone went dead because of his pings.oh well.
-bbm-
Me: hey..
Abdulrahman: finally!!!!! where have you been? i miss you!
Me: knt mash3'ula
Abdulrahman: shfek?:|
me: 3ady as2alk su2al?
He took minutes to reply then said:
es2li.
Me: why are we talking?
Abdulrahman: what do you mean?
Me: i mean, whats the point of all of this?
Abdulrahman: you're my friend and i like talking to you
me: but i'm not your gf! what do you think basma's reaction will be?
Abdulrahman: shda5al basma il7een?
Me: klshai! please abdulrahman, etha bt7akeny 7akeni ana l7ali, 7ata law just a "friend"

oh my god. what have i done? it's like i'm asking him to break up with basma to talk to me? wth......
Reema and her stupid plans...

what would happen to us now?

you call this love? 6

A long one, i hope?
Enjoy beauties<3
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"so you just said nothing and got out?" lama gasped for the millionth time as i was telling her about what happened.
Me*pouting*:umm i actually ran out, 9idg law tshufen shakla! y g a m 6!
Lama*laughing*: y7g la y39b walla! you just told his gf that he IS a player.
i tied my hair in a ponytail and murmured a "whatever" i kind of felt guilty though, i mean. didn't i go overboard?
No. he deserved it. he totally did.
Lama was sleeping over at my house, it was still saturday, right after i came back to my house i called her, and we are skipping.
Lama: so do you want to watch a movie?
Me: suure, you choose.
She chose "the notebook", she knows me too well, it's my favorite! eli law ashufa 1000 mara ma azhag.
But, for the first time i was distracted. overthinking to be exact.
So is he going to talk to me? wla 5ala9? it's just a thing to get over with? hmm..

Lama was so into the movie that she didn't notice me going out. i sat in our living room, it was around 10pm.
I tweeted "t or d? #dms*
6ab3an mu ktheir 36uni wajh but at least it was entertaining, till i got a dm from abdulrahman: "i'll play"
This is going to be awkward.
@HayaFK:  okaay, t or d?
@AbdulrahmanAX: : t
@HayaFK: what's your deepest secret?
He took a while to reply.
Abdulrahman: i don't have one.
Yeaah right.
@AbdulrahmanAX: your turn, t or d?
@HayaFK: t.
@AbdulrahmanAX: something you want to tell me?
Me: i'm sorry.
i said it! and i felt really good after doing that.
So we kept playing all night a long. seriously i couldn't get bored, we kind of ditched the game and started talking. like for 9 hours? a long time.
A really, really long time.


- 5 months later -
I sighed as i closed my eyes before getting another bbm from abdulrahman.
Abdulrahman: hayoni:(
me: da7umi:(
Abdulrahman: ashwa ma nmti=)) knt bgoulk shay
My heart literally skipped a beat.
Me: inshalla 5air?
Abdulrahman: 6ab3an 5air;) hu mu shay gad ma hu 6alab
Me: sooo?
He didn't reply. so i switched chats to talk to reema.
Me: w7ashteni yakalba:(
reema: omg hayaaa!!! walla ana akthar!:( kam li ma shftk? a5r mara bdj ghaida
Me: ee i guess, alzibda lazm njtm3 m3 elbnat ya5y:(
dana: 9aa7 why don't you come over to my house? mara zhgana il7een:(
Me: madri ast7y:$
Reema: shda3wa yazg t3aly amana! mafi ela ana o abdulrahman o shakla by6la3 m3 el3yal b3ad
Ugh, abdulrahman. the thought of him makes me smile, so how would i be when i see him?
it has been 120 days since i first talked to him. He is 100% another different man now that i got to know him. He is actually, sweet. sometimes.
We're like a really close friends nowadays. we talk every day. 24/7.
he tells me everything that happens to him and i Do the same. 7ata eny 7fa6't asma2 his friends. all of them.
too attached? you can say.
but we're just friends. he have a girl you know......
Me: okaaay bs2al mama o agulik!<3
s2alt'ha o wafgt. as i went up to my room again abdulrahman texted me: come tooo our house
Me: that was what you're asking me about?=)) reema just asked me to
Abdulrahman: umm i actually gave her the idea.
Me: so you want to see me? awwwh!
Abdulrahman: don't go "awwing" on me:) gltlha l2anha zhgana o kitha
me: 9adaagt=))

- reema's house -
i hugged her and we sat. there was only the two of us, and for my disappointment abdulrahman was out.
Whatever. i actually enjoyed my time.  we did prank calls and laughed our heads out, even though she is 19, she can still act 17 sometimes.
the main door opened and abdulrahman came in, we were sitting in the living room. he noticed us and smiled.
His attitude sure changed, but not that much.
Reema: da7uuumi! jabk allah! amana jb lna shai min elsupermarket?
He jumped on the couch: la wallah and maly 5lg
She frowned: yr9'ek e5tk o 9a7bt'ha yjlsun ju3anen? pleaaaaseee!
i talked for the first time: ee please mara mshtahya ice cream
He looked at me, then at reema and sighed: fine. but you're coming with me.
Reema*sitting next to abdulrahman*: ya da7umi ya7bebi 7na shda5lna njy m3ak?
he raised an eyerbow: l2nah aklkum? yalla 3ad
Reema: okay haya btjy m3ak ama ana and ma 3ndi est3dad
i mentally slapped her, effff! i don't want to! etha hy m3na ahwan 3ala ala8al!
Abdulrahman*bbming* etha hy ma 3ndha man3 3ady
Me: umm la 5ala9 mu lazm.
Reema*gasping* hayaa! b3d kl hatha la? yalla elbsi 3baytk o ru7i klha 10 dgayg!
i whispered to her: tara he isn't even my cousin to go out with!
she smiled: haw tara 3ady o i know my brother too well, trust me.
i sighed. i hate how easy to convince i'm. i got up, wore my abaya and he stood too.
Abdulrahman*smiling* yallah?
Me: ee
we got in the car and drove off.
silence filled in for 5 minutes i guess? then he started talking and i started too. it wasn't awkward as i thought it was going to be and i wasn't afraid or something. i actually felt safe.
W9alna altamimi o shrena o kitha, of course he insisted to pay:)
in our way back i was talking freely and laughing. it's weird how i got used to him quickly and felt comfortable
i. never. get. comfortable. easy.
He opened the radio and the song "i love the way you lie" came in. o m g! i loooove it.
i started singing outloudd, i was so into the song but he was staring at me. so i shut my mouth up and blushed: shfek t6al3?
He smiled: 9outk nshaz.
i laughed hardly; ouch, i actually thought you were going to say something nice.
He laughed along: get used to it, 7ata basma a36eha belwajh.
I felt a bang in my heart; basma?
he turned the engine off and we were already at his house. then said: ee basma haw? my gf!

A new one?
why am i even jealous?

you call this love? 5.

Dedicated to the birthday gurl! @Aseelkhalid_<3
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I closed my eyes tightly as i pressed the follow button, i don't even know why am i so nervous about this! it can't be something big, right?
Right after i followed him he dmed me, msr3?=))
*the usernames are made up for sure:p*

@AbdulrahmanAX: Heyy!
@HayaFK: Hai?
@AbdulrahmanAX: how are you?;p
@HayaFK: b5eer, ent?
@AbdulrahmanAX: b5eer damk b5eer<3
okaaay he is acting nice now, and it's straaange as hell.
why isn't he going straight to the point?
i ignored him and slept it away.
-
i heard my mother voice calling me from downstairs so i left my phone and went to her, and she was sitting with my dad, that doesn't happen often though; they are always too busy to sit with us a9lan.
My mom:haya 7abebti fe bazar felmmlka tben tjeen m3ai? Kl 9a7bati jayat
Me: la mama walla mali 5lg
My mom:mheb 7ala 4i kl ma gltlk tgulen la! w magd shafouk t3ali halmara bs
Me*frowning* 6yb 6yb
i dressed up, wore my abaya and took my phone, my mother was already dressed up so we quickly got in the car and drove off.
Now that i have the chance to check my phone, i did.
@AbdulrahmanAX: sm3t enik rj3ti elriyadh, 7amdellah 3ala alsalama!
@HayaFK: allah ysalmk:p shb3'et?
@AbdulrahmanAS: umm i actually wanted you to do me a favor..
@HayaFK: which is?
@AbdulrahmanAS: i want you to meet my gf..

whaat?
@HayaFK: lol shda5lni feha ana?:|
@AbdulrahmanAX: she asked to meet my sister Reema but i know reema would get mad if she found out i have a girlfriend, i know better.
i didn't respond, but he dmed me again.
@AbdulrahmanAX: soo please just meet her and pretend to be my sister or something?
@HayaFK: why would i do that?
@AbdulrahmanAX: because you're the one who saw us?
@HayaFK: it's still not convincing, abdulrahman.
"haya yalla w9alna, o etrki eljwal shwai shufi el3alm" my mother voice echoed in my ears as i got out off the car with her and to the bazar.
Slamt 3la 50 wa7da i guess? my mom know ahlot of if people mashallah! hours passed and i actually had fun.

- home -
i jumped on my bed exhausted, i wanted to sleep so badly! tomorow awal youm adawim feh min b3ad marja3t min dubai bs mali 5lg.
I was bbming my friends but i was too sleepy, right before i closed my eyes i saw the dm's sigh. ugh, what now?
@AbdulrahmanAX: it doesn't need to be convincing, haya. just please say yes. i will get it back to you someday you know....
@HayaFK: okay.
@Abdulrahman: finally! thank you.
you may think i'm crazy; but life is about taking risks right? right. :(
@HayaFK: yeah sure, when and where?
@AbdulrahmanAX: xxxxx caffe, saturday.
@HayaFK: how would i know who she is?
@AbdulrahmanAX: you saw her before;)
he meant back in dubai mall.
@HayaFK: so you knew..
@abdulrahmanax: i did.
-
"wake up yazg!!" dana's screaming was the first thing that i've heard today's morning. ugh i'm so NOT ready for school.
I assured her that i'm awake and she left, i wore my uniform and off to school.
"gaaalbi! i miss youu"
Me*hugging lama* so much more! t3ali we have a lot to catch up with!
Lama: oooh what happened? i'm sensing it's about a guy*winking*
me: it's NOT what you think it is*laughing* remember reema alx?
Lama: ee shda3wa! shfehaa?
Me: it's about her brother*going on and on*
She gasped: o m g! are you crazy? wshu meeting with a whole stranger? mub 9a7ya!
Me: shbtswi ya3ni? t56fni?*laughing* yolo yolo
Lama*mumbling* yathal alyolo eli la3ba feik.
i just shrugged, the day passed as normally as never.
-saturday-
i re-applied my lipstick once again and looked at myself for the last time at the mirror. i looked good. My naturally wavy hair was falling and i didn't put much make up, mascara, blusher and lipstick. that's it.
Another dm, here it comes.
@AbdulrahmanAX: 6la3ti?
@HayaFK: la lsa, remind me who will be there?
@AbdulrahmanAX: munera l7alha and i would be watching you but not from that close so it wouldn't be suspicious.
Time passed in a blink of eye and i was already there. it wasn't crowded tho, so i easily recognized the girl from that day, she waved her hair and was wearing a little too much make up.. but she seems nice.
Me: haai, munera 9a7?*smiling*
Munera*standing up and kissing my cheek*: haai reema, keefik?
Lol reema..
me*smiling*: kwaisa o enti?
munera: kwaisa!
we chatted for a bit, 9ut'ha dalu3 eli ynarfz shwai..
so i decided to open the subject.
Me: abdulrahman talked a lot about you
Munera*blushing* really? what did he say?
Me: you're the one he kissed right?*grinning*
Her face expressions changed: kissed?
me: um ee?*raising my eyebrows*
she shook his head: i don't get it, abdulrahman never kissed me?

A player.
i gasped: oh sorry then
She stood up annoyed: it was nice meeting you reema, i have to go
me: haw twna badri!*standing up too*
she just smiled fakely and walked away quickly, mart7t laha a9lan.
well; that was easy.

i made my way back as well when a firm hand gripped mine; i turned to my left to see abdulrahman.
Me: na3am?
Abdulrahman: what have you done?*gritting his teethes*
oh-oh.....

you call this love? 4.

As i promised.
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Well, I thought it was going to be an interesting talk, but it wasn't.
Abdulrahman: haya..
Me: yeah?
Abdulrahman: listen, what you've just seen was nothing, okay?
Me: nothing, seriously? You were kissing her and you call that nothing?*laughing*
he stared at me with a look that freaked me out! Then said: it's none of your business who I kiss and who I don't kiss! *smirking* tara you're just a stranger.
A stranger, somehow what he said had me taken back, bs 9idg ana shda5lni...
Me: right; but think of reema? What would she say about this? Knowing her brother is a player*smiling*

He shrugged: first; I'm not a player, second: she will never know, and you'll never tell her, clear?
ugh... minutes ago he was creeped out! Sub7an m3'yr ela7wal.
Me: i'll pretend that i believed  you, bs n9e7a elmara eljaya latjeb 3ashgtk elmjhula hna, mat3rf mein btshuf*smiling coldly and walking away.*
Life. It's weird how everything happens so fast!
I called the girls and asked them about their whereabouts then headed to them, we bought from Starbucks then got back to our hotel, I was exhausted bm3na elklma.
I slept it away the minute my head layed on the pillow.


Next day I woke up and it was our last day in Dubai:( i really don't want to leave this town.
We decided that we'll shop all the day so I wore comfy cloths l2ani b3'yr kl shwai and we went out.
Hours later we finished and everything, I checked my phone to find 17 bbm and 3 twitter notifications.
Bbm had nothing important that
 much, but reema has talked to me about meeting up again, I somehow didn't want to, Madri laish a7s elsalfa waraha 3bdulra7man...
Speaking of that, I checked my followers and was literally shocked.
Omg, he followed me. WHY! What does he want now?
This guy is weird.
I decided to not overthink about and continued my day peacely. I still didm't follow him back and i don't think i'm going to see him again a9lan.
But fate has a change in everything, doesn't it?
- Riyadh -
I jumped on my bed and let out a big sigh. I don't miss riyadh but my room is another thingg.
I slept for a few hours then woke up like 9:55 pm? Noumi byada yla5b6!
My cousins got back to their home o dana is sleeping so mn el6fsh i was spamming the timeline with my tweets and i shared my ask.fm link and i was surprised to see this:
"follow me back haya, there's something i want to tell you. - abdulrahman"

you call this love? 3.

Dedicated to @ReemAlsu_! i love you so much.
so yo guys let's make a deal. if this post reached 10 comments i'm going to post chapter 4 before 24 hours;) sounds good? enjoyy!

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we stared at her then back at him, We weren't close so they didn't see us.
Me: umm reema mein hathi?
reema: 3elmi 3lmik, *gasping* hathi m3ai feljam3a!
Me: tmz7ein 9a7? shjabha la5ouk!
Reema*staring at them* wallah madri, bs2ala il7een
she waited impatiently for them to finish, they were laughing then she seemed like she said bye or something because after that she walked away.
Abdulrahman saw us and got nervous but quickly hid it with his careless look, but haha! busted.
Abdulrahman: mashallah ma 6awltu*smiling*
Reema: ee, da7umi men elbnt eli kant m3ak?
abdulrahman: no one, bs kant tbi ts2al wein el7mam okitha o jlast a3lmha
Yeah riiiight. at least reema seemed convinced..
Me: I should get going now*hugging reema* i really had fun! we should do it more often
Reema*smiling* we will galbiii, baii!
i went back to my cousins o rja3na elhotel.
-
watching tv alone, everyone was asleep except me, i couldn't help but think of that girl.. who is she? it's not like i care but, idk.
i opened twitter and searched for reema's username, akeid she is following 3bdulra7man ya3ni, and i'm bored so let's staaalk.
i finally found him, his tweets were all random okitha but his last tweet was "what a day<3" what a day? LOOL nothing good happened a9lan! i looked down at the retweets: @MuneraAlx.
hmmm.. could she be that girl? la shda3wa.
Whatever, let's just go to sleep.

i woke up next morning and my cousins were all awake before me, they were having breakfast.
Fahda: a5eran 97eti! 7asha yahaya ma9art*laughing*
Dana: numat ahl elkahf*eating*
Me: leish km elsa3a?
Layan: 1:40
Me*gasping* o taklun f6our el7een?
they laughed and shrugged, i showered and dressed up, we were planning on going to some mall then jbr.
Time passed SO SO fast! it was already 9:10 pm and we were heading to jbr which means we were heading to the tmel7 residence lol.
- jbr -
Fahda*walking beside me*: omg n9 bnat mdrstna hina! eli mu 6be3i
Me*bbming* ee taw shft 3anoud o jouhara bs masalmt
Layan: haw laish?
me*coldy* they were too busy giving a guy their numbers
Layan: omg! how low
Me: shftiii? alzibda hatha subway 5anakil feeh
Dana: jayen kl elmshwar 3ashan subway?
Me: amana walla mshtahyta! o b3daha nru7 elb8ala eli fou8*smiling*
fahda: la ya7bebti ru7i l7alk
me: 6yb.
UGH, i sat alone as always and ate then headed upstairs, t3rfun eldaraj hathak eli ywadi llb8ala? alzibda r7t foug o makan za7ma abad, it's a little too creepy though...
Knt amshi o fe lafa eli twadi llb8ala bs kan fa9'y eli bzyada! i thought that there was no one but then, i was wrong.
i spotted a guy and a girl kissing.
i gasped, okay maybe too loud but i was shocked, the guy turned around and saw me then his jaw literally dropped.
guess who?












Abdulrahman.
i smirked and he stared at me, he looked funny! it's the first time i've seen him like this, frightened.
it's not like i've known him for too long but.
However, the girl said: da7umi shfeek?
i couldn't see her well because she was behind abdulrahman.
Abdulrahman: mafeni shai 7abebti bs abeik tnzlen bsr3a o ana abi akalm a7ad okay?
She said okay and left but i still didn't see her effff:( the way back she didn't turn or something.
he coughed and got closer to me then said: haya!
seems like this is going to be an interesting talk.

you call this love? 2

i'm so sorry for the eventless chapter guys but i had writer's block and quizzes all week so bear with me:(
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:excuse me? yes we need 3 tickets for ***** movie, third row on the left, yes thank you!
Me: so are we finally done?
we were in dubai mall, za7ma wouldn't even be close to describe how it was! we basically spent 40 minutes standing here, me, dana and our other cousin Fahda.
After two hours and a half the movie ended, we quickly got out and stood right behind reel cinema, you know that place right? alzibda fahda was dialing her friend number and she is meeting her, dana wants to go shopping but i'm somehow not in the mood for it so i guess i'll pass.
Me: girls ana bru7 3nd elnafura okay?
Dana*bbming*: yeah okay.
i took an elavator and went downstairs.
-incoming call reema-
me: omg haaai
reema: helloo! how are you?
me: pretty good, you?
reema: i'm good, haya i'm so bored can we go out or something? ma3rf wein da7umi o my parents are in jbr
me: suree ana zahgana b3ad! i'm in dubai mall can you come?
reema: ee bs batjahaz and i'll meet you in half an hour.
i hung up and sat in some restaurant, Reema came and we exchanged greetings and sat.
Reema: mu 6bee3i keif mlyan s3udyein!
me: shfti? Abad ma kan kitha f2010, twhum y6e7un feha*laughing*
Reema: min jd!*smiling*
We ate and chatted then ordered desert, reema was bbming someone i don't really know who but she seemed annoyed.
me: shfeik?
reema: nothing, yalla nmshi?
me: ee okay
we walked in silence.
reema: pft okay i have to tell you this, Mama texted me and said that abdulrahman must walk with us
me: haw laish?
reema: tgul enu z7ma o mlyan shbab o madri eish, eff el7en mabngdr ntklm bra7tna*frowning*
Me; and i don't want him to come too
reema*laughing* eish sawa b3ad
me*smiling*nothing, bs kitha he is rude
she looked behind me: oh well too late; he already came!
My luck. my stupid stupid luck.
he walked to reema,his eyes fixed on his bbm. i was behind her.
he was talking to reema while his head was still down because he was typing something, but when i first spoke his head shot up then he looked at me coldly; oh, you are here.
me: apparently *smiling fakely*
ugh this is guy is soo! idk how to describe he is just getting on my nerves.
we walked around dubai mall, Me and abdulrahman were picking up on each others like kids and Reema was our mother lol! all the girls eyes were on us, well not me and reema but abdulrahman!
Me: reema shrayk nd5l hatha?*pointing at a candies store*
abdulrahman: bazr
me: ent shda5lk?
reema: geez calm down guys, abdulrahman wait here.
d5alna and we bought candies and everything; when we came out we saw abdulrahman with a girl.

you call this love? 1.

Hello guys! i missed you so much xx
so i'm back with a new story, it's NOT true but it has some true events.
enjoy! and please comment.
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The sound of the rain dripping on Starbucks window reminded me of my last winter with him, sweet winter.
i smiled at the thought of him; his eyes, his smile, his smell, his warm hugs...
2011 was and will always be my favorite year because of you, Abdulrahman.
i wore my coat and got out walking, seems like today will be full of memories.

-2011-
Dubai.

Walking in jbr alone, i can easily sense the stares from the guys around me and their comments! ugh, a girl all left alone in jbr? what would they think.
the weather wasn't that cold but it was windy, i tightened my hands around my scarf wanting to be a little more warm.
Da! ding.
i checked my phone and it was my bestie lama, i chatted with her for a few and that's when my phone started to run off battery; great time!:)
now what am i going to do? i promised my sister to call her so she was going to pick me up and i'll be able to go back to the apartment at 11:pm! eff....
i started looking around like a freak trying to get a solution for this, anything? but nothing came out.
keep calm haya, it's okay..
i started walking around again and that's when my eyes fell on that grey eyes from hers, omg i know that face, i know it!
she gasped loudly as she screamed: HAYAA!
i smiled: reema! long time no see.
she hugged me tightly as she said: i know! i missed you so much guys!
me: 9adgeni 7na akthar..
Reema was our close friend, she's not that close to us eli nru7 bet'ha o kitha bas we always sat together in break times, she's so kind and pretty mashallaah! alzibda this year she got graduated from our school but i'm still in grade 11.
Reema: Eewa kaifk?
me: walla 7amdellaa kwaisa o enti? kaif eljam3a?
she smiled: 7amdellaa allah msahil, ela wain dana*my sister*? ma shftaha!
me: klhum jlasu belhotel o ana eli 6la3t, 9aa7! reema can i call her from your phone?
reema: haw laish?
me: my phone mafi battery and i need to call her so she will send someone to pick me up.
reema: afaa a7ad ywa9lik o ana mawjudaa? emshi m3ai a9lan my brother is near and i don't think dana wouldn't agree.
me: umm la walla 3adi bs abi akalimha o hi tji!
reema: min jdk enti? emshi bas i'll call abdulrahman now
since i didn't have a chance to say no i agreed, oh well....
she called him and he said that he's waiting near chilies, i walked with her to chilies and that's when i spotted a hottie, a really hottt one!
he's got the bad boy style.
he was facing us while leaning on his Porsche and smoking, his eyes are total another thing! he's got that grey eyes like his sister's! they are perfect mashallah! i don't know from who they got them tho...
he stared at me then back at his sister in a 'who-is-this' look.
Reema; da7umi amana abik twa9lna l the address hotel, 9a7bti tskin hinak*looking at me and smiling*
i smiled back at her then heard him clearing his throat: 6yb yalla namshi.
the ride back was umm, awkward?
they were talking freely while i'm just staring at my phone even tho we all know it's off but whatever.
We finally arrived; i was about to go out when reema suddenly said: haw wein ray7a?
me: umm hatha elhotel, thank you soo much reema adri t3abtik
reema: i know but you're not going up there alone bn9 al lail! o shda3wa la t3ab o wla shai, abdulrahman*turning to him* wa9el haya their room.
is she seriously asking him do that? my god, this is embarrassing.
he looked at her coldly; lazim?
she shot him a scary glare, it's funny that she's younger than him but still he got scared from her looks lol.
he sighed and followed me as i walked into the hotel.
we got in the elevator and stood awkwardly, he lit up a ciaggarate.
i stared at him annoyed: you know you can't just smoke in the elevator, i need air.
Abdulrahman: i don't care.
me: umm okay..
i was taken back by his reply, i mean any another guy would've at least apologized or something...?
before i got out of the elevator i looked at him: soo.. bye!
he didn't even reply, i started walking to my room and got in; they were all sleeping. wow so they even forgot about me?
i hate how free my family is.-
you can see this was the first day i met him, lol no love at first sight, no silly smiles and flirting, but how about we wait to see how it will be?;)

i chose you. chapter13 *FINALE*

Me: ee?
: good! you didn't change your number.
me: emm who's this?
: it's ahmad, remember?
me: not really?
ahmad: LA, khalid, Starbucks, doesn't ring a bill?
me: ooh that ahmad.. umm what do you want?
ahmad*sighing* i called you to talk about khalid.
hearing his name....
me: about?
ahamd: he have been really sick this past three months, he doesn't go out, he doesn't eat, he is miserable, and it's all because of you, are you happy of that?
happy? i'm miserable too!
me: ahmad.. how did you know this?
ahmad: well, as you know i'm not that close with him but his friends are worried about him and they told me about the 'girl' who turned his world upside down and i knew it was you.. so i took your number from his phone without him knowing and called you...
my eyes teared up: a-hmad what do you want me to do ya3ni? he doesn't want me in his life anymore!
ahmad: he does! you're the one who ruin it!
me; wow so you're calling me just to make me feel bad more than i feel?*sarcastically*
ahmad: no, i'm calling you because i want you to talk to him, at least that may make him better, so would you?
me: i don't know..... how can i do that?
ahmad: it's easy, just follow my steps.
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i walked back and forth in the empty living room, HIS living room! i still can't believe i agreed on coming here ugh, ahmad said that his parents are traveling.
Khalid:h-hanouf?
yagalb hanouf:') he looked really broken my heart ached at the thoughts of what i did, i missed this handsome face, i missed his laugh, i missed his voice. i missed talking to him.
i went closer and smiled: ee hanouf
khalid: wsh jabk hina?
me: umm because i missed you?
he stared at me: ween s3ud 3nik?
me: fkena el5i6ba.
he stared at me, again! what's with the no emotions face? i'm really getting worried now.
me: what's wrong, why aren't you happy?..
khalid finally removed his eyes from mine and said: i'm, but it's too late.
me: w-what do you mean?
khalid: it means that i'm moving on just like you did hanouf.. my mother talked to me about this girl and-
me: are you kidding me? i still love you khalid! i freaking love you*tearing* and you're saying that you'll marry another girl?
khalid: i'm sorry hanouf...
me: khalid please tell me you're not serious?*crying*
he just looked at me emotionlessly, is this even khalid? i don't remember him being careless like this!
i just walked out of his house as fast as i could, isn't it embarrassing? i came all the way for him and this is what i get..
i went back home and layed on my bed, this reminds me of the last time i saw him, it's like i'm living the same day again and again. i guess i will better after a while, i wish.
2 weeks passed and nothing really changed, expect that i became dumb, not feeling anything at all, in the past there was hope of me and khalid being together, but now??

moving on, i just ate lunch and was about to sleep when my mom came by my room and sat on my bed.
that same weird look, laykun eli bbali?
my mom: 7abebti t3rfein en benik o bein saud makan fe n9eib o mfrou9' takmleen 7yatik 9a7?
me: 9a7?
just like i thought.
my mom*smiling* jayenk 56ab, o ana s2alt 3nhum o mashallah 5oush nas!
me: bs mama ana mabi atzawaj!
my mom: laish 7abebti? 9adgeni a7san lik o shft elwalad ba3ad mazyoun*winking*
i laughed: mama mo 3an kitha, bs madri...
my mom: 6yb ana b5aleik tfakreen*getting up* magltlik 3an esmah?
like i care.
i just looked at her and she continued: khalid alx.
khalid alx
khalid alx
khalid alx
am i dreaming?
me*staring at her* mt2kda khalid alx?
my mom*laughing* ee haw shfeek mu m9adgaa?
me*smiling* la bs kitha, 6yb mama bfakir o a7akeik.
she left me, but i'm still not believing that! o m g!
five days passed, i told my mom about my decision eni mwagfa, lol like i thought about itttt!
i'm just too happy.
she talked to them about 'alshoufa' and they told her that it's going to be tomorrow, i called sara and she was as shocked as i was, she promised that she's not going to leave me tomorrow, galbi.<3
- skipping one day-
i never felt nervous like this, sara tried calming me down but it didn't work that much, my mother called me, slamt 3ala oma o jlast, then my mother called me to go to the other living room and that's when i became nervous all again, ugh.
i got in and sat, not removing my eye off the ground, i don't remember ever being that shy!
khalid: hanoufa
me: hmm?
khalid*laughing* shda3wa 3ad 6al3eni!
me*smiling* magdar..
he sat next to me and held my hand: laish ma tgdreen?
me: it's too good to be true , i don't want to look at you then this may be a dream
khalid*smiling* you're too cute tdrein?
i looked at him and smiled: adri
khalid: that's the hanouf i know*laughing* i missed this smile.
me: i missed yours too! but what about that girl?*laughing*
khalid*smiling* that girl is the one i'm looking at right now, the one i love so much, the one who's going to be the mother of my children's, and that girl, is the most prettiest girl in my eyes, you know her right?
me*smiling* right, i love you khalid.
khalid: i love you so much more*kissing my hands*
i looked at our hands and smiled, ot fits perfectly together, and when i looked up at him he leaned to kiss me, i closed my eyes but we were interrupted by sara's screaming. i jumped from my place and she laughed: ashufkum bzyada ma54ein ra7tkum?
i blushed again and khalid smiled: i couldn't resist it.
-current day:-

"babe" i said through the phone.
"hmm?" khalid replied.
"you should sleep" it was around 4:00am and we're still talking.
khalid: "but i still didn't get enough from you"
as always i blushed and replied "you will when we get married"
"three months left? i can't wait!" he whined.
"you can just like how you waited before, yalla goodnight!"
"hanouf!" Khalid said quickly.
"3yuna?"
"i love you." he never forgot,  every time we end the call it will end by Khalid saying'i love you' and me replying:
"much more"
i'm just too lucky. but that didn't come easily, or did it?


so sadly this is the end, and i'm really going to miss writing this story!:( thank you so much guys for your feedbacks it really meant a lot! i hope you liked it and please don't forget to comment!xx
Goodbyes for now.<3

i chose you. chapter12

people! one chapteerrr left!!! this goes to @_layyaan, i love you. <3
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days passed, i don't remember doing anything other than laying in my bed crying my eyes out, call me a dramatic, but really losing him made me realized how much i'm in love with him.
it drives me crazy that i completely lost contact with him, i just want to see if he's okay, god!
sara barged into my room and as always, i pretended to be asleep so she wont keep asking me about what happened, but she isn't seeming to give up, she sat on my bed and softly said: hanouf, please talk to me, i know you're not sleeping.
i didn't reply but she continued: me and saud are worried sick about you, please just talk to me!
i raised my head: what do you want?
sara: i want you tell me about what happened, 9adgeni bya7yik kitha.
i sighed: okay, but don't interrupt.
she nodded and i started telling her everything, she kept quiet but gasped when i mentioned that we kissed, haha. no more.
when i finally finished, she opened her mouth to comment but soon enough, saud came in. he smiled widely once he saw i was awake.
saud: hanouf!!! finally! how are you now?
me*smiling* i'm good.
saud: soo how about we go out now?
me: no you all go and have fun, i'm staying.
saud: afaa! ana jay 3shanik o ma a6la3 m3ak ela mara wa7da?
me*smiling* i'm sorry but i'm not in the mood
saud: you'll be after we go out, yalla get up! i'm waiting.
sara looked at me: he is right hanouf, there's no harm in going out, yalla i will pick you something to wear. and i'm not going.
i nodded, no harms right? i should get some fresh air after this.
i wore whatever sara gave to me and we went out to spectrum. my face was pale, first: from crying, second: ma76eet wla nug6at make up.
saud was chatting while just smiled at him and laughed at his comments, nothing much.
: s3oudiiii hatha enta?
a girl with a FULL MAKEUP i mean it, she looked like a clown seriously lol! her hair was waved and she was wearing a really short shorts and a top, ew.
saud stared at her nervously then at me, then said: halla Najd.
Najd: shdaa3wa mafi hug wla shai? didn't you miss me?*smiling*
emm, what's going on?
me: saud who's this?
saud: this is my friend..
najd: didn't we discuss this before 7abebi? *looking at saud and smiling* i'm his girlfriend, and you are?*looking at me*
me: i'm his fiancé if you didn't notice.
she looked at me and faked being shocked, mugrfa.
to avoid more drama i just walked quickly out of spectrum, and to my surprise saud didn't even follow me, oh great. so now he doesn't care?
i took a taxi and went back to the hotel, i officially hate my life now, and it wasn't just because of saud.
i layed on my bed once again, going out wasn't a good idea after all, sara was there but didn't utter such a word, after couples of hours saud came back. he came to my room.
saud: hanouf can i talk to you?
me: suureee! but first where is your girfriend?*smiling*
saus: she isn't my girfriend.
me: oh please! *taking a deep breath* saud i'm really sick of this.
saud: and i'm not? i've been trying to be understanding for too long, and i seriously had enough! you are such a selfish kid hanouf, you don't deserve anything.
me: oh so you're ending this with me now?
saud: i didn't say that, i just said-
me: save it saud, it's over.
it's over. and since that day i NEVER spoke to him again.
i talked to my mother and everything, she was shocked but understood me.
i didn't expect to feel that happy by ending things with him, but i really did! i finally felt relived, alive and most of all, free.
but something is always missing, khalid.....
- three months after -
back in riyadh, summer ended one month ago, i'm now in my second year of university, my life was all about university, sleeping and eating, boring.
one day i came back from university tired as ever, i checked my phone and found 6 missed calls from that unknown number, that number couldn't stop calling from last night, and kept ignoring thinking it was some random number, but turns out it wasn't.
i picked it up: na3am?
: hanouf?
it was a male voice.

i chose you. chapter11

Dedicated to @TweetyJay_, n7bik.<3
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I kept staring at the screen for 10 minutes, we.need.to.talk.
this is not good, i feel it.
saud noticed how pale i was, he looked at me and said: 7beebti feek shai?
me*trying to smile* la abd wla shai.

me: sure. where?
khalid: beach,
me: our spot?
khalid: yeah.
me: ok, see you there.<3
he didn't even reply, bismellah..
terrified couldn't describe how i was, i literally ran to the beach ignorning saud and sara voices around me. i don't even remember what it took me to get there, i just did.
i saw him standing there, the look on his face was priceless, he seemed like he has just seen a ghost. i walked slowly to him.
me: hai..
khalid: hey.
i stared at him, b3dain? he is really freaking me out.
suddenly he blurted out.
khalid: that saud, is he saud alx?
that's saud's family name, so i nodded silently, not knowing what's next.
khalid: hanouf, i'll ask you a one question and please,*sighing* please answer honestly.
me*nervously* go ahead..
he kept silent for about 5 minutes and when he finally talked, i heard that question that i was always afraid he is going to ask..
khalid:*staring at me* are you engaged?
i couldn't act, i couldn't speak, it's like my tongue got tied suddenly.
khalid: answer me!
me*whispering* yes....
i looked up at him and he was staring emotionlessly at me.
me: khalid... please say anything...
khalid: what do you want me to say hanouf?*screaming* do you even know how stupid i look now in front of my mother now?
me: y-your mother?
khalid: yes! my mother! me being stupidly in love i asked my mother about your family, i searched and searched for your family's numbers and begged my mother to call yours so i can*smiling sarcastically* propose, and do you know what they told her? they told her that their daughter is practically married now! so all the time you weren't mine, and it was all a lie right? you're just using me...
me*almost crying* i wasn't! i really love you khalid!
khalid: don't, i've had already with your lies.
me: please don't tell me this is the end....
he stared at me, i knew he was broken from the look he gave me, and it shuttered me to pieces, i love him, i really freaking do..
khalid: what do you want me to say hanouf?*sighing* you're really thinking i will accept this and go around being your 'second guy'? the one you're cheating on saud with?..

you aren't, i WAS cheating with you on saud...
me: believe me you aren't my second guy, you never was.
we went silent, i honestly lost track of time, i was in my own deep thoughts.
khalid*sighing* so i guess this is goodbye, i already booked a flight back to riyadh.
i couldn't help but cry, this is real, this is our end.. i cried and cried and he stood there staring at me, i guess he didn't know what do right then...
after half an hour i guess i was still crying, he pulled me to his arms and hugged me, i continued non-stopping crying and whispered against his chest 'i love you.'
i felt his heartbeats getting quicker and quicker, he loves me more, i'm sadly sure of that.
he let me go later on, i didn't want him to, i just want to stay forever in his arms.
he started to walk away, no no no i'm still not ready, i still want to talk to him!
i walked quickly behind him and faced him: khalid...
he looked at me sadly: what?
me*tearing again* i'm going to miss you.
i got closer and kissed him for the last time, a long sad kiss, my tears were heavily falling, i felt his tears too, galbi...
he pulled away and cupped my cheeks: goodbye hanouf.
and left, simply left.
i walked back to the hotel, my tears didn't stop falling, i'm sure i looked like a freak but who cares, i no longer care, about everything.
as soon as i stood my foot into our room i was welcomes by saud and sara's screaming, but they quickly stopped when they saw my face, saud came and hugged me tightly: what's wrong?*whispering*
i didn't reply and they sensed i wasn't in the mood to even talk, an hours later i went to my room and laid on my bed.
overthinking, what's khalid doing now? is he okay? where is he? am i supposed to talk to him now or what? i don't know..
i grabbed my phone and quickly read his tweets:
"What happened to us? We were almost there."
" ولا تسوى حياتي شي من بعدك"
" i love you. and i will always do."
and a lot more tweets, my heart ached as i read every single tweet he tweeted, remember when he sang to me 'ya3ni 5ala9'? well, i hope he remembers, because i tweeted:
" يعني خلاص مافي امل ترجع تداويلي الجروح؟:')'
"sometimes love isn't enough."
a minutes after i tweeted he blocked me, can you believe it? he blocked me from twitter, whats app, Kik, literally everything.
Right then i knew i lost him. right then i knew i'm never going to be happy again.
Right then i realized, i've loved once in my life, and it was the wrong guy.

i chose you. chapter10

i really hope this is long enough, there is only a few chapters left so guys please tell me what you think of the story so far.<3

i couldn't.. i just couldn't do it.

i moved away a bit and said: khalid we're so late 3ala sara matbeena nirja3?

khalid*moving a stand of my hair and smiling* i still didn't get my kiss

me*smiling sarcastically* well you should get used to this.

khalid*whispering*  i don't want to

he pulled me closer and kissed me, i was paralyzed, dumb, you name it.

i couldn't help but kiss him back, and it was the stupidest thing i think i ever did.

he backed off.

khalid*smiling* i love you.

butterflies, butterflies all over my stomach, i never felt like this before.

me* looking down* i love you, too.

i don't know how many minutes or even hours passed, we were in pure silence, and since he is WAYY taller than me i couldn't see his face so i kept my head down, not knowing his reaction.

khalid: hanoufi..

i looked at him and his eyes lit up, i saw something different in them, i saw love, lost, passion,  and most of all happiness....

khalid*smiling* you just made my while year do you know that?

me*blushing* let's just go back sara is going to be mad.

khalid: a7b eli y9arf ana*laughing* yalla.

we went back to starbucks to find sara setting there, she smiled once she saw us.

sara: finally! you really did stole her*laughing*

khalid: i wish if that is possible though*looking at me*

i just smiled, i was planning on setting but he quickly sat and pulled me to his lap.

me*blushing* stop! mu 3ind sara b3d

khalid: i don't caaaare, a9lan 3adi sara 97?*smiling*

sara: allah yrzgni bs*laughing*

i know she is just acting along, she was also giving me one of those you-are-so-cute-together looks.

we started chatting with her for a bit, khalid never let me go and to be honest, i loved it.

sara: hanouf i'm getting sleepy how about going back?

me: ee yalla, khalid btrja3?

khalid: ee etha btrj3oun wsh yg3dni*smiling*

we went back to the hotel and once khalid left us, sara sighed.

sara: hanouf; you know what you are doing is so crazy right?

me: i know, but please put yourself in my shoes! what would you do?

sara: i seriously don't know! god.

me: i can't even imagine seeing him getting hurt....

she hugged me: 7beebti 5ala9 forget about it and sleep, tomorrow saud is coming right?

me: ee 9a7! ra7 3an bali wallah.

sara*smiling sadly*my sister is madly in love, good night.

me: good night.

i couldn't sleep that night, i tried and tried but i couldn't, oh mu god! saud, khalid, me. all in a one city, one hotel, what if they meet? what if saud saw me with khalid? or even worse, what if khalid saw me with saud?....

i should make up a lie to tell khalid, i know. i'm really hating myself for doing this.

me: khalid

khalid: sami? wait aren't you sleeping yet?

me: insomnia, and i just wanted to tell you something.

khalid: and the thing iss?

me: saud, a close friend of our family is coming to LA, and i have to be with him.

khalid: o laish inshallah?

me: ma ja a7ad m3ah o 3aib atraka l7ala!

khalid: o ana ttrkeni 3adi?:(

me: 6ab3an la! don't worry i'll be seeing you but not in front of him...

khalid: sure.... i'm going to miss you.

me: i'll miss you too:(.. good night!<3

khalid: good night 7beebti<3

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i woke up next morning, we are supposed to pick up Saud from the airport, so we got dressed and headed to the airport.

we saw him, he hurried up and hugged me tightlyyyy, i laughed: you're squeezing me

saud*pulling away*  i miss you so freaking much!

me*smiling* so much more, let's go.

he also hugged sara then we went back to the hotel.

he and sara went along for fact, don't get me wrong, it's like they're becoming best friends!

we chilled, and decided to go out to a restaurant, i was having a good time until i received his message. 

Khalid: we need to talk.

i chose you. chapter9

she stared at me, her eyes were wide open with shock.

sara: i should've expected this!

i sighed: it's not like i was planning to.. but it just happened.

sara: hanouf 7beebti you know i wish the best of you and that's why i'm treating you like that, but god! i never saw this coming, and yeah this was supposed to be our BEST trip and we should be having fun, not fighting!

me: you're right.

she hugged me and said: so what about going out? min zman ma 6la3t m3ak!

me: suure, let me change first, it isn't that windy out there right?

the weather was normal in mornings but windy in the nights.

sara: madri wallah, wear anything it doesn't matter

we gor dressed and went out for a coffee, while chatting there khalid called me and i picked up immediately.

khalid: hallaa 7beebti

i blushed, it's the first time he calls me '7beebti'

me: halla feik.

khalid: weenik?

me: 6al3a m3 sara, laish?

khalid: abi ashufik*smiling*

me*laughing*: haw makamlna two hours shayfeen b39'

khalid: adriii bs eshtgtlkk

i kept on blushing and sara saw that so she grabbed my phone quickly and said: halla, khalid 97? *laughing* 7seet, wsh tbi min hanouf 7wmt kabdi ya5i, you stole her from me i barely see her*frowning* ahaha we are in starbucks, oh 9dg? weird*laughing* 6yb 6yb bs hathi elmara*laughing again*yalla bye.

c u t e, ashwa enha ma nfst 3lai!

me: aish gal?

sara: he is coming here*smiling*

me: NOOO WHY! i look like shit!

: you always look beautiful.

i turned around and he was khalid so i smiled awkwardly.

khalid*smiling and looking at hanouf* sara esm7eeli but i'm going to steal this beauty

sara*laughing* 7lalk 7lalk bs la t6wloun

i gave sara the i'm-going-to-kill-you look and she just shrugged, i love her for this though...

so i said my goodbyes to sara and walked out with khalid, we were just walking around Starbucks chatting and laughing, i was REALLY enjoying my time but of course something have to ruins it.

khalid spotted someone and suddenly his facial expressions changed, i looked up and there was a guy heading to us.

the guy*looking at khalid* hallaaa wallah abu m7md!

khalid: halla halla, wsh jaybk LA?*smiling* 

i sensed he was faking it a9lan kan bzyada wa9'7!

the guy, abd ana welshbab jayeen, ela meen hathi?*looking at me*

he was SERIOUSLY checking me out, wj3! yarb en khalid gdamik ya3ni!

khalid: ahmad ma atwa8a3 lazim t3rf*gritting his teethes*

ahmad: shd3wa 3ad 9'b6na m3aha 6yb! wallah enha muzza*looking at me*

Ohh oh i'm sensing a fight is going to start so i held khalid's hand and said: khalid 5al nrja3 ana t3bt

ahmad: mu nawi tgoul ya3ni? 6yb enti yal7lwa 3lmeeni wsh esmik?abi your number at least*smiling*

wj3 wj3. khalid was going extremely angry that i thought his veins were almost going out!

i ignored him and literally dragged khalid with me trying to calm him down, we don't want to start a scene in the middle of the streets!

a minutes passed with us walking in silence, i decided to break it.

me: umm where are we going?

he bursted talking.

khalid: enti 9a7ya labsa kitha w hina malyan s3oudyeen?

i was wearing a light yellow short dress, 3adi shakli shd3wa! and he is used to me wearing like this wsh feeh il7een?

me: wsh feeh lbsi ma feeh shai? wla 3ashan hathak lazim ana albs 3baya min bukra?*smiling sarcastically*

khalid: wallah ana eli a3rfa enah ma kalmik kitha ela o hu 3arf en elashkal eli zai kitha bt36eeh wjh

me: na3am? ashkal aish? ya3ni il7een 9rt ana a36i wjh? ma shftni msheet?

khalid: 5ala9 change the subject bs

i stayed quiet, i mean 9dg ana masweet shai wsh feeh 3lai! is it because he is jealous? OH now i know why.

the weather was going cold and i was shivering since i'm wearing backless dress, sara never told me it's going to be this windy!

suddenly i felt warm, right then i realized khalid was wrapping his arms around me to keep me from being cold, UGH cuteness even though he is mad he worries about me.

me*smiling* are we going back?

khalid: kaifk.

me*looking at him* yarabi,  lel7een z3lan?

khalid: ee, ra9'eeni*smiling*

i knew what he meant, he wants me to kiss him.

so should i?