i chose you. chapter12

people! one chapteerrr left!!! this goes to @_layyaan, i love you. <3
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days passed, i don't remember doing anything other than laying in my bed crying my eyes out, call me a dramatic, but really losing him made me realized how much i'm in love with him.
it drives me crazy that i completely lost contact with him, i just want to see if he's okay, god!
sara barged into my room and as always, i pretended to be asleep so she wont keep asking me about what happened, but she isn't seeming to give up, she sat on my bed and softly said: hanouf, please talk to me, i know you're not sleeping.
i didn't reply but she continued: me and saud are worried sick about you, please just talk to me!
i raised my head: what do you want?
sara: i want you tell me about what happened, 9adgeni bya7yik kitha.
i sighed: okay, but don't interrupt.
she nodded and i started telling her everything, she kept quiet but gasped when i mentioned that we kissed, haha. no more.
when i finally finished, she opened her mouth to comment but soon enough, saud came in. he smiled widely once he saw i was awake.
saud: hanouf!!! finally! how are you now?
me*smiling* i'm good.
saud: soo how about we go out now?
me: no you all go and have fun, i'm staying.
saud: afaa! ana jay 3shanik o ma a6la3 m3ak ela mara wa7da?
me*smiling* i'm sorry but i'm not in the mood
saud: you'll be after we go out, yalla get up! i'm waiting.
sara looked at me: he is right hanouf, there's no harm in going out, yalla i will pick you something to wear. and i'm not going.
i nodded, no harms right? i should get some fresh air after this.
i wore whatever sara gave to me and we went out to spectrum. my face was pale, first: from crying, second: ma76eet wla nug6at make up.
saud was chatting while just smiled at him and laughed at his comments, nothing much.
: s3oudiiii hatha enta?
a girl with a FULL MAKEUP i mean it, she looked like a clown seriously lol! her hair was waved and she was wearing a really short shorts and a top, ew.
saud stared at her nervously then at me, then said: halla Najd.
Najd: shdaa3wa mafi hug wla shai? didn't you miss me?*smiling*
emm, what's going on?
me: saud who's this?
saud: this is my friend..
najd: didn't we discuss this before 7abebi? *looking at saud and smiling* i'm his girlfriend, and you are?*looking at me*
me: i'm his fiancé if you didn't notice.
she looked at me and faked being shocked, mugrfa.
to avoid more drama i just walked quickly out of spectrum, and to my surprise saud didn't even follow me, oh great. so now he doesn't care?
i took a taxi and went back to the hotel, i officially hate my life now, and it wasn't just because of saud.
i layed on my bed once again, going out wasn't a good idea after all, sara was there but didn't utter such a word, after couples of hours saud came back. he came to my room.
saud: hanouf can i talk to you?
me: suureee! but first where is your girfriend?*smiling*
saus: she isn't my girfriend.
me: oh please! *taking a deep breath* saud i'm really sick of this.
saud: and i'm not? i've been trying to be understanding for too long, and i seriously had enough! you are such a selfish kid hanouf, you don't deserve anything.
me: oh so you're ending this with me now?
saud: i didn't say that, i just said-
me: save it saud, it's over.
it's over. and since that day i NEVER spoke to him again.
i talked to my mother and everything, she was shocked but understood me.
i didn't expect to feel that happy by ending things with him, but i really did! i finally felt relived, alive and most of all, free.
but something is always missing, khalid.....
- three months after -
back in riyadh, summer ended one month ago, i'm now in my second year of university, my life was all about university, sleeping and eating, boring.
one day i came back from university tired as ever, i checked my phone and found 6 missed calls from that unknown number, that number couldn't stop calling from last night, and kept ignoring thinking it was some random number, but turns out it wasn't.
i picked it up: na3am?
: hanouf?
it was a male voice.