you call this love? 6

A long one, i hope?
Enjoy beauties<3
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"so you just said nothing and got out?" lama gasped for the millionth time as i was telling her about what happened.
Me*pouting*:umm i actually ran out, 9idg law tshufen shakla! y g a m 6!
Lama*laughing*: y7g la y39b walla! you just told his gf that he IS a player.
i tied my hair in a ponytail and murmured a "whatever" i kind of felt guilty though, i mean. didn't i go overboard?
No. he deserved it. he totally did.
Lama was sleeping over at my house, it was still saturday, right after i came back to my house i called her, and we are skipping.
Lama: so do you want to watch a movie?
Me: suure, you choose.
She chose "the notebook", she knows me too well, it's my favorite! eli law ashufa 1000 mara ma azhag.
But, for the first time i was distracted. overthinking to be exact.
So is he going to talk to me? wla 5ala9? it's just a thing to get over with? hmm..

Lama was so into the movie that she didn't notice me going out. i sat in our living room, it was around 10pm.
I tweeted "t or d? #dms*
6ab3an mu ktheir 36uni wajh but at least it was entertaining, till i got a dm from abdulrahman: "i'll play"
This is going to be awkward.
@HayaFK:  okaay, t or d?
@AbdulrahmanAX: : t
@HayaFK: what's your deepest secret?
He took a while to reply.
Abdulrahman: i don't have one.
Yeaah right.
@AbdulrahmanAX: your turn, t or d?
@HayaFK: t.
@AbdulrahmanAX: something you want to tell me?
Me: i'm sorry.
i said it! and i felt really good after doing that.
So we kept playing all night a long. seriously i couldn't get bored, we kind of ditched the game and started talking. like for 9 hours? a long time.
A really, really long time.


- 5 months later -
I sighed as i closed my eyes before getting another bbm from abdulrahman.
Abdulrahman: hayoni:(
me: da7umi:(
Abdulrahman: ashwa ma nmti=)) knt bgoulk shay
My heart literally skipped a beat.
Me: inshalla 5air?
Abdulrahman: 6ab3an 5air;) hu mu shay gad ma hu 6alab
Me: sooo?
He didn't reply. so i switched chats to talk to reema.
Me: w7ashteni yakalba:(
reema: omg hayaaa!!! walla ana akthar!:( kam li ma shftk? a5r mara bdj ghaida
Me: ee i guess, alzibda lazm njtm3 m3 elbnat ya5y:(
dana: 9aa7 why don't you come over to my house? mara zhgana il7een:(
Me: madri ast7y:$
Reema: shda3wa yazg t3aly amana! mafi ela ana o abdulrahman o shakla by6la3 m3 el3yal b3ad
Ugh, abdulrahman. the thought of him makes me smile, so how would i be when i see him?
it has been 120 days since i first talked to him. He is 100% another different man now that i got to know him. He is actually, sweet. sometimes.
We're like a really close friends nowadays. we talk every day. 24/7.
he tells me everything that happens to him and i Do the same. 7ata eny 7fa6't asma2 his friends. all of them.
too attached? you can say.
but we're just friends. he have a girl you know......
Me: okaaay bs2al mama o agulik!<3
s2alt'ha o wafgt. as i went up to my room again abdulrahman texted me: come tooo our house
Me: that was what you're asking me about?=)) reema just asked me to
Abdulrahman: umm i actually gave her the idea.
Me: so you want to see me? awwwh!
Abdulrahman: don't go "awwing" on me:) gltlha l2anha zhgana o kitha
me: 9adaagt=))

- reema's house -
i hugged her and we sat. there was only the two of us, and for my disappointment abdulrahman was out.
Whatever. i actually enjoyed my time.  we did prank calls and laughed our heads out, even though she is 19, she can still act 17 sometimes.
the main door opened and abdulrahman came in, we were sitting in the living room. he noticed us and smiled.
His attitude sure changed, but not that much.
Reema: da7uuumi! jabk allah! amana jb lna shai min elsupermarket?
He jumped on the couch: la wallah and maly 5lg
She frowned: yr9'ek e5tk o 9a7bt'ha yjlsun ju3anen? pleaaaaseee!
i talked for the first time: ee please mara mshtahya ice cream
He looked at me, then at reema and sighed: fine. but you're coming with me.
Reema*sitting next to abdulrahman*: ya da7umi ya7bebi 7na shda5lna njy m3ak?
he raised an eyerbow: l2nah aklkum? yalla 3ad
Reema: okay haya btjy m3ak ama ana and ma 3ndi est3dad
i mentally slapped her, effff! i don't want to! etha hy m3na ahwan 3ala ala8al!
Abdulrahman*bbming* etha hy ma 3ndha man3 3ady
Me: umm la 5ala9 mu lazm.
Reema*gasping* hayaa! b3d kl hatha la? yalla elbsi 3baytk o ru7i klha 10 dgayg!
i whispered to her: tara he isn't even my cousin to go out with!
she smiled: haw tara 3ady o i know my brother too well, trust me.
i sighed. i hate how easy to convince i'm. i got up, wore my abaya and he stood too.
Abdulrahman*smiling* yallah?
Me: ee
we got in the car and drove off.
silence filled in for 5 minutes i guess? then he started talking and i started too. it wasn't awkward as i thought it was going to be and i wasn't afraid or something. i actually felt safe.
W9alna altamimi o shrena o kitha, of course he insisted to pay:)
in our way back i was talking freely and laughing. it's weird how i got used to him quickly and felt comfortable
i. never. get. comfortable. easy.
He opened the radio and the song "i love the way you lie" came in. o m g! i loooove it.
i started singing outloudd, i was so into the song but he was staring at me. so i shut my mouth up and blushed: shfek t6al3?
He smiled: 9outk nshaz.
i laughed hardly; ouch, i actually thought you were going to say something nice.
He laughed along: get used to it, 7ata basma a36eha belwajh.
I felt a bang in my heart; basma?
he turned the engine off and we were already at his house. then said: ee basma haw? my gf!

A new one?
why am i even jealous?