you call this love? 13.

This is just a pre-finale chapter, the finale one will be posted soon.
And guys do you like this way of writing? or the old one?
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"W-what?" his voice was shaking as he asked me, i took a deep breath and tears started falling down again.
"you heard me." i whispered, not sure if my voice was even hearable.
"but why haya? i thought you lov-" he said but stopped before mentioning the love word. here is it. he's not even sure if i love him? is he crazy or something?
"i'm too young to get married abdulrahman! i'm just 17!" i sighed.

"we can work it out 7abebti! and for now, i want you to think about this before you answer me again because i'll be waiting for you. keep that in mind." i can hear the tone of depression he used. he was depressed.
"o-okay.." i was gasping for air from crying that i couldn't come out with proper words to say.
"don't cry baby girl! i'm not mad at you, how could i be? please, just smile." he calmly and lovingly said.
"i miss you so m-much, you know.." i gulped as i started wiping my tears with my other hand.
He sighed deeply. "i misse you more and more! now go to sleep, you sure need to rest now."
i nodded, unaware of the fact that he can't see me.
"good night, sleep tight love"
"good night." i hung up and stared at my phone for minutes, i miss him already.

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-4 months later.-
4 months has passed and abdulrahman didn't return back yet. he was supposed to be back earlier.
our phone calls got less day by day,i understand he is busy but i feel so empty without him.
Today, me and abdulrahman completed one year together, i wished that this would be in different conditions where we would celebrate it together, where he would look at me in the eyes and whisper "i love you." and-
but now. i just hope he remembers....
i was home alone, my sisters and everyone were going out but i-like always- didn't feel like doing that so i stayed.
My phone rang "A.<3"
i picked it up: "haai!"
"it's been a one year.." he said and i can feel him smiling.
"you remember.." i said slowly more like stating a fact.
"how could i forget? it was my lucky day." i blushed as i stared at the floor, i feel like he is here, right beside me.. holding my hands.
Who said long distance relationships can't last? now i'm sure it can.

"it passed by so fast! i still remember the look on your face when i first met you." i grinned as i started playing with my hair.
"yeah.. you haven't answered my question yet, haya"
"what question?" i wondered.
"my proposal?" i giggled as it came to my mind, oh god.
"i don't know..." i lamely answered, embarrassed.
He sighed and i can tell he's tired.
"shfeek?" there's something going on, i'm sure about that.
"wla shai! i gotta go now.."
"but-" he interrupted me.
"i love you. "
Did i hear that right? did he just say it?
"wh-at?" i dumbly asked.
"i love, adore, admire you haya!" he whispered.
"u-uh i do more." i blushed furiously.
"take care babe!" he said as i mumbled "you too" then the line went dead.
i love him. and i'm sure about my answer now.
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"i'm so worried lama, what's wrong with him?" i said as stared at my bestfriend, weirded out.
"haya! don't overreact just because he hasn't called you in what? 7days?"
"12 damn days lama! it's a long time." i looked again at my phone hoping he would surprise and call me.
"don't worry, honey. akeid he is busy with work or something, tra it isn't easy for him there!" she hugged me.
"i hope." i whispered.

9.. 10.. 15 days passed and i still didn't hear a thing about abdulrahman, i freaked out!
I started calling reema and she also didn't pick up, i called again and again bas mafi fayda.

what's happening?