Falling in love again. chapter13

talal's pov:

after i said that, she stared at me for a minutes then hugged me tightly, i hugged her back and i really needed that hug!!

she backed off and whispered: since when?

i sighed, i just don't know but it felt so right talking to her so i decided to tell her.

me: since a year, she was my life maha! literally everything! and when she passed away i was depressed i wasn't being my old funny self for six months and everyone noticed that! until i finally got over her, not really, she still crosses my mind every day and i still look at our photos back when i first met her in miami and she took my breath away! but nobody know about her except you....

she listened carefully then said:

talal, you have to know elmout 89'a2 allah o gdra ma tgdr t3'yra! she's in a better place 7amdellah! and i know that if she's still here and if she sees you looking like this she wont be happy because*taking a deep breath* i'm sure she loved you too and wanted you to be happy so try to move on please?  o remember I'm always here for you!

her words kind of released me somehow.. she kept talking with me for a while then i felt that it's getting late so i walked her to her apartment and said my goodbyes to her.

maha's pov:

i walked in the apartment to find nawaf sleeping on the couch,

he must fell asleep while waiting for me galbi:c

i woke him up and helped him to to his bedroom* i have two bedrooms in my aprtment* i covered him and went to my room and slept.

next morning i woke up at 10:00am so i decided to skip my classes for today and spend it with nawaf.

i washed up and wore my clothes, i went out of my room to find nawaf setting on the couch watching tv. 

he saw me and didn't smile, weiiirdd.

so i went and sat beside him.

me: nawafffii what do you want dor breakfast?

nawaf: i already drank my coffee.

okayyy..

nawaf: ma 3ndk jam3a?

me*smiling* la i skipped todays classes

he just nodded and continued watching tv.

me: soo wsh tbi nswi elyoum?

nawaf: lesh mu nawya t6l3een m3 7beeb elglb?

i stared at him: what do you mean?

nawaf: you know what i mean maha, talal!

me: o meen gal ena hu 7beb glbi? he's just a friend!

he gave me that 'yeah right' look.

me: what!

nawaf: enti ma shfti keef tna6'rena? wla keef awal ma ja nseeti eni mwjoud a9lan? wla k2n feeh 7mar hina jay london 3ashanik?

me: im sorry, it's just that...  never mind i'll make it up to you okay?

he looked at me as i did my poppy face and smiled.

nawaf: okay

we decided to go to London eye since its not weekend so it wont be crowded!

so we went there and we took alot of crazy and good pictures, one of them was me standing and nawaf side hugging me while smiling, i really liked this picture so i posted it in Instagram and wrote 'best cousin ever<3'

i checked my phone after that, i didn't check it since i woke up. i found one whatsapp from talal.

talal: goodmorning!!!;p coming to college?-9:30am-

me: good afternoon!<3 no i didn't;p-12:45pm-

he replied instantly.

talal: why? i missed you!

 can he get any cuter?

me: i went out with nawaf

talal: you know he can wait for you to attend your classes then go out;p

me: i know but i want to spend the whole day with him..

talal: so he's the hottie?

omg, he thought the hottie was nawaf like seriously? i gotta admit it, nawaf is hot but he is only a cousin to me!

me: no noo! nawaf is like my brother;p

nawaf grabbed the phone from me and said while smiling: mu glti you'll make it up to me?

i laughed: i just used it for a minutes

he read the conversation and stared at me.

nawaf: why is he asking about me?

me: nothing he just thought you are my crush*laughing*

he smiled as he raised his eyebrows: i know i'm handsome you can confess to me its fine

me*smiling*:agoul emsh bs nakl

nawaf*laughing* 6yb 6yb

we went to a resturant near the london eye and ate, i really enjoyed my time well i always enjoy it when it comes to nawaf but this time we're in London so..

time passed quickly, i was chatting with talal from time to time, when it was 11:00 pm we were exhausted so we went back to the apartment.

i took a shower and wore my pjs but i wasn't sleepy, i went to the living room and opened my laptop, reblogged some posts in tumblr and tweeted. nawaf already slept.

i also watched a movie min el6fsh bs still no signs of getting sleepy. 

it was getting nearly 3:00am and i still didn't sleep. i closed the laptop, opened my phone and entered whats app, i don't know why but i hoped that talal texted me or something.

just as i was about to close my phone a massage popped.

talal: lessa ma nmti?

me: yeah i cant sleep, you?

talal: same reason.. nawaf is asleep right?

me: ee, why are you asking?

talal: bs..

5 minutes passed then he sent me another text.

talal: can you go to the roof?

i stared at the text then replyed: why?

talal: just come.

me: but i'm wearing pjs!

talal: 3adi 3'yri o t3ali;p

me: pfft okay

i got up and wore a jeans and a white shirt them headed to the roof.

and here he is, looking as handsome as always....

talal: heyyy!

me: hii

he grabbed my hand: t3ali i want to show you something.

i walked with him to a spot where there was a small garden, he sat down and gestured me to set down too,  i obeyed him cluelessly.

as i watched the sky it was amazing! it was filled with different stars and the moon's light was the only light here. it was quiet, pure quietness.

as i was staring at the sky i felt talal staring at me so i turned to him and smiled. 

talal: haven't you realized how your hair is dark brown but it lights with the moonlights? it's beautiful.

me: 9dg? ahaha

i didn't know what to say and he kept staring at me then he smiled and turned his gaze to the sky.

we chatted and chatted, the weather was so good especially this time, before sunrise.

i felt sleepy so i said: talal i will go to apartment okay?

talal: laaa its 4:30 mabga shai 3ala el sunrise! lets watch it together!

i just smiled lazily and rested my head on his shoulder.

we kept silent, but it was a good silence not an awkward one.

i stared at the sunrise then stared at talal.

this is perfect, i thought.

me: talal

talal: hmm

i felt nervous, but i had to ask it anyway.

me: are you thinking of falling in love again?

talal: i don't know, i don't think i'm ready to lose another one but,  if i met the right girl it would be worth it.

hmm., the right girl?

me: and what is the right girl for you?

talal: someone who understand me and loves me with my flaws i guess.

me: and don't you think that you already have a one like that?

he stared at me cluelessly then shrugged his shoulders and said: no..

i stared at him, i love you! i wanted to shout it! but then of course.... i can't.

why did i loved him this fast?why is this have to be hard? i don't know.

me: emm since we watched the sunrise, can we leave?

i was getting annoyed of what he said earlier.

talal: emm sure!

he got up and helped me too.

we walked silently to my apartment.

talal*smiling* goodnight

me*smiling back: good night.

i got in, wore my pjs and quickly slept.