Falling in love again. chapter21

hey! sorry for the short post but i'll post the finale one soon.

and yeah just a chapter left, SO SILENT READERS COMMENT!xx

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i panicked, like literally did.

i didn't pick up, mswya thgeela o from inside i was jumping up and down...

he called again, one more, two, three, until i finally decided to pick up.

me: alo?

not a voice came out, only his breathing.

after like 5 minutes i spoke again.

me: alo?

talal: don't say yes.

omg.......

me: what?

talal*calmly*: don't. say. yes.

well i like it here, let's play stupid shall we? two months of suffering worth it.

me: say yes to who?

talal: nawaf.

me: meen galk?

talal: leena

me*laughing* 97, ent 3ndk leena ZOUJTK t3lmk bkl shai y9eer ana wsh d5alni etha a7ad 56abni ma awafg? wla l-

talal: i love you.

what? that left me speechless, IT REALLY DID.

i have always wished him to say it, but not now, not here, not on the phone....

me*whispering* you do?

talal: i always did, i just didn't realize it ela lma 3rft en nawaf 56bk, o 9dgeeni leena abd ma thmni! it was just a stupid crush! o ektshft enha 9dg tafha o ma 7btni a9lan ma 54tni ela 3ashan tghrk

leena? tghrni? what the....

bzran?7na? huw l3ba o ta54a mni...?

me: tstahbel?

talal: la wallah o hey tgouli kitha b3d.

i kept silent, wsh agoul wsh a5ali?

he just confessed his love to me but it just... didn't feel right, ugh my life is seriously messed up.

talal: maha..

me: hmm

talal: wsh by9eer el7een?

me: madri, i may say yes to him.

yeah, i said it on purpose, i wanted him to feel my pain when he decided to marry her.

talal: wshu? o el7mar eli galk ena y7bk?

someone is angry here..

me: wallah ya 7bebi m7d galk t56b lk w7da o alzwaj b3d esbu3 tdri wsh m3na esbou3?

talal*sighing* adri, i don't know why i was putting myself in this.

me: i don't know either, bttrkha 6yb?

PLEASE SAY YES.

talal: madri 9a3ba wallah

wow.

me: so i'm refusing nawaf and you aren't dumbing leena, great.

what does he think i'm like seriously?

talal: maha, enti estni shwai o inshallah btrkha

me: astna lmta ya3ni? lma ttzwjun o tjebun 3yal b3d*faking a laugh* no sorry.

talal*whispering* but i need you.

hie voice is killing me slowly.

why does this have to be hard?

me*sighing*: esma3, etha trkt'ha o 9dg 9ar alw9'3 klmni okay? bye.

i hung up on him and as always, i cried, i cried, i cried till there was no more tears.

so real love is this?

getting hurt.

getting heart aches every now and then?

getting worse day by day?

well, i guess it is.

i need my day maker.

-calling nawaf-

nawaf: halla belzaain

me: hey..

nawaf: ya76'i damni sm3t hal9out

me: haha.

nawaf: wsh feek yagalbi?

me: wla shai i just wanted to ask you a question

nawaf: sami?

me: if i refused will things change?

ouch, that came wrong in a many ways.

stupiddd maha.

i shouldn't ask him this question because he kept silent.

nawaf*sighing* listen i know you are still in love with talal

me: i'm not!

still with the denying.

nawaf: maha ana a3rfk akthar min nafsi*sighing* bs 9dgeni huw ma y9la7 lk o ma y7bk zai ma a7bk ana! i don't want to force you etha ma tben and things wont change inshallah

i know he is lying, that broke my heart. but i don't want to marry someone who i don't love, ugh...... 

me: ok... i have to go

nawaf: bye...

me: bye

days passed, i felt really empty after that thing happened.

i took a break from everything,  it's for my own good i guess to decide.

and i thought of it well.

today is the day.

my mom came to my room.

my mom: ha maha wsh glti?

yes?

no?

yes?

no?

that's for you to guess;).