Falling in love again. chapter20

i stared at her, jayk 56ab?

it's not the first time that this thing happens but usually my mother refuses without asking me a9lan! because she thinks i'm young and i agree, but why does it have to be serious this time?

my mom: ha, shrayk 7bebti?

me: emm meen eli 5a6bni 6yb?

my mom*smiling* nawaf

Nawaf? nawaf proposed to me? this must is a joke, i know his lame jokes or maybe this is another nawaf????

me*still staring at her* nawaf?

my mom*laughing nervously* ee nawaf wld 5altk! maha a3rf enik t7sbena b7sbat a5ouk bs elwld shareek o ybeek

me: bs-

my mom: la ma abi jawab el7een adri enik m9douma, b5li lk wgt tfkreen o b3dha rdi li 6yb?

and she left my room, i was still caught off ground with what just happened.

Me?

Nawaf?

Marrige?

just let that sink in......

-calling anoud-

anoud: heyy babe!

me: my place, now.

i hung up o she came with a blank of eye.

she stormed into my room and rushed to my side.

anoud: what's wrong?spill ittt

me: nawaf

anoud: wsh feeh?

me: he proposed

she paused then looked at me, i realized she wasn't that shocked, what the hell?

me: anouud*giving her the look* enti knti t3rfeen?

anoud: uhh-umm

me*raising one eyebrow* wshu?

anoud: come on everyone knows a9lan! tara it's obvious ena he loves you! 7atta fahad noticed that!

me: what?*laughing nervously* no he don't

she sighed and sat next to me.

anoud: maha 7beebti, enti ma t3rfeen bs ymkn hathi el5eera lk? o b3dain you may like him, but you're just too engrossed in conniving yourself that you love talal!

oh don't remind me, please.

as she said his name all the memories came back in a rush, our laughs, moments, our non-chatting, when we watched the sunrise, his birthday surprise, everything, this is just too hard to handle.

me: i miss him....

anoud: he is going to be married in a couple of weeks, get over it maha!

me*tearing* ma agdar, i don't want him as a lover if it takes! i just want our friendship back..

she hugged me tightly: listen, i know you are confused now but think about it, nawaf is a great man! and he loves you from the bottom of his heart! please maha est5eeri o la tsta3jleen! they are ready to wait for a whole two weeks for your decision o don't rush, okay galbi?

i nodded, she stayed with me for a bit then left.

i checked my phone, he didn't talk to me at all, uhm.... 

i guess he want us to be apart for a while. 

GREAT! i lost one bestfriend and i'm going to lose the other if.... 

okay. nawaf is hot, he is understanding, and funny! he spent literally his whole life with me, i know him well, bs madri!

a whole week passed, i was stalking each nawaf's and talal's tweets, i knoww lifeless much?

nawaf's tweets were all about me i guess, he is just too sweet!

while talal's didn't seem to tweet a lot, i wonder if something is going on!

just stop thinking about him you stupid kid.

i was sitting in my room when najla called me.

najla: I'M BORED

me: i'm more, come over?

najla: la mali 5lg o 6fsht min beetkum, enti t3ali?

me: emm madri..

najla: min mta i maha ma tnam 3ndna?*laughing* wla 3ashan nawaf?

me*smiling* najlaaaaa 5alaa9

najla: a9lan 7beeb elgalb mu belbeet madri etha bynam belbeet b3d, so sleep over, please please please?

me: ughh okayyy

i reached her house and got in, it was pretty empty mafe ela najla.

we sat and chatted, ate and watched movies, we did everything min el6fsh.

me: najla abi ajeeb mouya t3ali m3i?

najla: laish ma trou7en l7alk?

me. mdri the house is empty o a5af

she bursted laughing.

najla: you're-laughing- freaking 19-laughing

me: so?

najla: rou7i l7alk bs

i realized there is no point of begging her, mara7 twafg.

so i went downstairs.

i took some cookies out of the fridge and started eating silently, i felt someone moving but i assumed that i was just imagining, no one is here maha, stop being a child.

 i felt someone holding me from my waist so min elgm6a i chocked in my food.

nawaf*rubbing my back* bismellah 3laik

oh.........

i stopped and just stood silent, he was still behind i can even feel his breath on my neck but i didn't dare to turn around and face him.

nawaf: maha.

again, silence.

i took all the courage in me and turned to look at him, it's not the first time but boy was i feeling so nervous.

he was still holding my waist and staring at me, i stared at him back for a long time i guess, i was so lost into his oh-so-mesmerizing eyes, it's like this is the first time that i take in his beautiful eyes, his handsome features

nawaf: maha i lo-

he realized what he was about to say and stayed silent.

me: why me?

nawaf*confused: why what?

me: why did you chose me?

nawaf: because you are different, you're caring, you understand me a lot and the most one is, i never ever laid my eyes on a beautiful women like you, in and out!  i was so stupid to not notice that earlier.

for the first time in my whole entire world i blushed because of his words, i guess i'm changing.

me*smiling* emm nawaf, i have to go, najla is probably waiting for me upstairs

nawaf: ma 3leek mnha bs, ejlsiii m3i*smiling*

me*smiling* la b3dain inshallah

he kissed my cheek and let me go, omg.........

it's not the first time that he kisses my cheek but it felt different.

this is different.

i got back to najla and continued the day with her, nawaf never stepped by her room or something.

back home, i laid on my bed and opened whats app, our friends group.

leena is in the group btw.

anoud: girls guess what?

ghada: what?

anoud: someone is getting engaged soon;)

sara: omggg! meeen?

me: anoud!!!!!!:)

anoud: shd3wa 5leehum y3rfun;) 

lama: galbiii maha mabroukk!<3 who is the lucky guy?

anoud: nawaf her cousin

me: yarabbi tra lsa ma wafgt a9lan wsh feekum!

ghada: you will babeee we know how much nawaf means to you

i just ignored their non-stopping messages, threw my phone, and closed my eyes.

i woke up several hours later on my phone ringing,  i opened one eye and looked at the number, it was an unsaved number but oh how i knew who it was well.

it was talal's.

talal is calling.